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Track: Sinnerman

Consilium by Justin “neo” Shockley


A larger part of me wonders what they think
I’ve never took a wooden canoe down that stream but
I once traded souls with a man who did
He told me a story of a woman he took the journey with
they paddled with desire
their strokes were short
after a while they’re motions didn’t cooperate
it took his mind to the beginning of the journey when they were young
she told him stories of how she visited that ocean
she talked as if she met the waves and stroked the wind with certainty
she seduced the man with tales and her beauty
what did she expect that he wouldn’t eventually notice?
the man memorized every current
she was swimming in his desire
this was nothing short of walking barefoot on splintered mirrors
but she lied to herself
and stole someone else’s current
leaving him confused
“you cant steal the wind” he said “so why did you try?”
“how could an entire ocean fit in a mans pocket?”
All she could say was “one look deceived me.”
Then they parted ways away from this river called consilium
he went his way
she went hers

This poem is dedicated to Davis! Happy Birthday Buddy! (dont worry she'll come just ride the current)

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The Corporation
Directed by

Jennifer Abbott
Mark Achbar

Cast Noam Chomsky, Naomi Klein, Víctor Hugo Daza

Genre :Documentary

The Corporation

You did not respect me
in turn you murdered me
am i still living?
my lips move but where i once stood i now crawl
the trail you see behind me are my own nails
made from the point of impact and our forced hand
you struck us down and dare call life an ideal
were not an option were the oceans current
gravity is our only mediator
the biosphere our jury of peers
feed us
live with us
please dont forget us
now we lay where you left us
on the floor
still
with open arms
broken jaws
and torn clothes
waiting for reconciliation

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Kill Bill Soundtrack Vol. 2

Track: Tu Mira - Lole Y Manuel

OH OH OH

Oh how the light of God shone through him
when he slapped his wife around
Oh How the light of God shone though him
when he walked right by my heart
my arm outstretched begging for change
“get a job” he said as he proceeded to Coldstone to hear some wage slaves sing him some tunes
as he ate his 5 dollar ice-cream cone
Oh How the light of God shone though him
as he told me what a good Christian wall street broker he was
fanning his gut on a hot August day
I’ve got it all together he said as he spoke out of his flapping rear
“more people should be like me. Rich and corporate not lazy and poor.” “look out ‘50 cent’ its my birthday” he said “man im such an awesome Christian unlike you ”
I don’t know it was sort of mystical when he said it...
OH How the light of God shined through him
im so impressed SO IMPRESSED SO IMPRESSED BY YOU CHRISTIANS
all these wonderful experiences leaves an atheists heart fluttering with anticipation of the next
light filled experience.
They were right I need to be more like them
so wrong was I to be tired of the churched
damnation used to be my religion and now its pride
thank you Lord for saving me from my narrow eyes
I look forward to the day when I can say
Oh How the light of God shines through me


Authors note: this is written from the perspective of an aethiest. even though im very much Christian

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Track: Esmeralda Suite - Santa Esmerelda

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Track: Bang Bang - Nancy Sinatra

Decision

I think I've decided i was never meant to be here
I think I've Decided I was never meant to sit here
living with my passion in a shallow puddle
in the bottom of my shoe isnt considered wishful thinking
everyday perpetual disillusionment
my next order wont be a foggy bottom
my reason is found in bouncing against rejection
right around the corner I see it
It's right there underneath my eye
I'm getting up from this chair now ok?
you're here because you have to be
fears whispers made your hand clutch and throat close
I'm not afriad so im getting up from this chair now ok?
sandals feel like new hair
finally with all this i can breath
smelling the oceans tide and ressurection

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Track: Textbook Case

Insignificant

Love everybody
Love everything
revise
repeat
redraft
respect all life
especially your own
because out of that
the world will follow

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Track: Sink Florida. Sink (electric)

Valley of Berachah (blessings)

I sat there that night like so many of us have
In that moment that we often describe as defeat every huge
thing I ever hoped seemed so far from me
it seemed like a 9 foot sword though my lungs
simply because my air isn’t my own
everything I dreamt is connected to us all
I don’t care about me
but if that thing dies
others will suffer
catastrophe will occur if my life isn’t alined with the victory
I can’t stay in that moment
and if necessary I’ll build a time machine
a life is precious because it effects so many other poems
every life is words
spoken into existence
arranged differently but each effected
by the care put into grammar, punctuation and syntax
that’s why my heart was heavy
so each day I’ll try to arrange my life into a positive sonnet
that speaks of calm mornings
filled with sunshine, blueberry muffins and forgotten sorrows
and of how I now dwell in
the valley of Berachah

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Nazara

Track: Maa

Anarchy by Justin “neo” Shockley


easily broken
I take one hand wrap it around
each side breaks
each reaction greater than the other
the thing I wrapped my hands around?
apathy. this thing I discovered
promised to end their pain
no one cares about us unless we have
gold bullions and pixie dust
never again will I autoplay you
its to important to let you die here
cape? no just action
ill swoop down doc martens laced
and let them all know how futile this is
to try and contain something unfettered
so I creatively flip you off
within 20 lines of captivity


(SIDE NOTE: i wrote this poem for a poetry contest. none of my poems would fit so i made this one up basically letting them know how stupid a thing it is to put so many rules on something so creative)

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Track: Walking away

Hope by Justin "Neo" Shockley

You lied to me
even though we did it
you know what? never mind I read the truth written along a bee who was pollenating a red dandilion
All along I didnt realize weeds and oil grow together
I wont listen to the lies
I know the truth and its at the end of an 8,000 mile curve
you cant get me to sit straight or salute
Im too old to get drafted
my freedom lies at the bar with my old bag and drinking glass
im taking my last drink from a 2000 year old beer mug called phil
I extend my arm and sip it straight down really fast
theen with my arm still extended I point at that man and call his eyes lies
im through with broken words
worn out girdles taking my words and smashing them in their dentures
ill never lose hope even if you name it Birtha
ill diet your lies and become a new tomorrow forever
tonight ill sleep and die with a cross
fading scarlet will put on pajamas and sing me sweet promised lullabies
no one.
nothing can take away my cinematic perfect blue panoramic view
crystal clear
projected on tommorow

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Track: Safe Haven

White Sand by Justin “neo” Shockley

I fantasize about clean beaches clear waters and white sand
On my beach it sometimes becomes unbearable
is such a thing possible?
I’ve never been on a clean beach before
my beach is looking cleaner though
every so often someone comes and cleans it
it’s a guy named Gus
He’s had the same fantasy’s I’ve had about
clean beaches clear waters and white sand
he takes out this image from his pocket
it’s a photo from a far off land
“it’s a picture right out of my mind. Never give up kid there’s always hope”
“pick up your trash and remind everyone to keep this beach clean.”
It seems unrealistic but if we could create this why isn’t that possible?
I’ve seen the pictures so its something ill hope for.
Ill look past the past and my former desires
just imagine...
clean beaches, clear water
and white sand....

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Ten

Track: Release Me

Fabio's Redemption Song by Justin "neo" Song

when we get saved... those moments before we know Christ all thats there is darkness. Right before we make that decision there is thought and comunication between us and the holy spirit.
the angels in heaven await.
in the distance there are people praying.
thoughts, good words.
but darkness... over in our head we hear darkness and seperation but from what.
hold on the connection is coming just
listen to G... listen to this voice...
wait Jes... please God let him hear
then you hear a voice this can only be a voice greateer than mine a voice from above and then i hear it.
so distinct.
a voice promising to set me apart from on the pain.
promising me everything that i thought wasnt possible in this world of disapointment. WHY DIDNT IT MAKE SENSE BEFORE BUT THIS PURE VOICE FROM GOD ... CANT LIE.
please father JESUS release me!
pleaseofatherpleasesendsomeoneJesusinijasijaopacant even express ... please... i... never knew life could make any sense
i never knew perfect love exsisted.
in one moment a grace exchange

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Track: If the kids are united



Quarter Short by Justin “NEO” Shockley


Frustration Frustration Frustration
Im a man trying to stick a gold bar into this bubble gum machine
Surely these kids want gold instead of a quarter
My pockets are empty and besides
look how it gleams
I say to the kids look this bar comes from Egypt
it was owned by Queen Sheeba and is millions of years old
Its owner has the blood of kings
its seen twilights millions of years before you were even a memory
it visited prophets, shipyards and kings
its seen vandals, pirates, wars, famine, and even the holocaust
this gold bar has seen the very course of history change
it spoke with Solomon and the wisest men of China
this gold bar chatted with Buddha and sat on the great wall
Its been around the world and has even owned the hearts of many men
now I give this gold bar to you and you’re telling me that I should
stick the gold bar in the bubble gum machine or give you a quarter?
I wish I could reform it the way you want it
understand this when I speak it
This bar was purposed the way it was and I wouldn’t be helping if I reformed
this gold bar into a quarter

Lucid Shoes by Justin “neo” Shockley

Life is a dream
you can dream you’re a superhero running at the speed of doubt
conquering nothing at blinding speeds
it can be a never ending nightmare filled with your humanity
other times you could have a lucid dream
on those days you have a hole in your pocket and bad luck falls out
9am wakes up for you and all is as right like green eggs and ham
life is unpredictable but worth living
I don’t want to wake up
don’t wake me up until im done
im running but there is an space of air between me and the ground
im not moving
im not moving
im running but im not moving
don’t wake me up before im through
im not ready to wake up
to feel the eyecrust and reality’s air
as incredibly hard as it is sometimes
ill endure the nightmares
my dream will determine my waking life
so let me get this right
please Lord
don’t wake me up
im not ready for this dream to end
I know I can touch the ground
but im running in place and air fills my traction space

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The Fires of LIke

Track The Fires of Life

El Otro Soy Yo (i am the other)
By Justin “neo” Shockley

Im sitting here with a pen in my hand wondering if I could wirte
down everything I ever felt
everything I ever thought
every emotion and everything I’ve ever said
everything I ever was and everything ill ever be
every word ever spoken to me and recite every movie line I’ve ever heard
why I am who I am and why the heavens open up at his command
why angels tuck my pillow in at night
why sewers resemble sympathy
INSANITY would be me trying to do the same thing the last
monkey did and do it the exact same way expecting a banana
I look up at the sky and wonder if you saw my shooting tomorrow
I feel everything that you’ve never felt and try to explain oceans in a way to get
you to agree that im relevant
Im explaining something that eternally expresses itself in new men
mixed in with me yes but im telling you I’ve found magic beans
beanstalks that lead to everything
everything youll never know
everything I’ve ever felt
at the top of that stalk a voice cries out
over the edge of the world with a mic and speaker
“el otro soy yo” I am the other