knock run tree stood


so the man approached the tree
filled with anger
air filled his lungs
and with intent he cried
why should I believe
why should I care and recieve
that a lifeless thing such as you can know
pain or hurt or have any type of process that makes you alive
a lifeless thing with no need or purpose inside
for we plant you we care for you
and without us you would die
you dependent thing
you horrid useless penny
you don't serve well
but still
some find interest with the small but petty
to them the few and odd I say
double your resolve
or be a broken man
lost
wieghtened
bit on the back
and neslted on a broken levy

the tree did sigh
a frown enveloped him
like a reverse sunrise
a punchline not gotten
or a lilac with no seed
the tree just stood there
not confusing his hurt for anger
wondering why thought
hoped him
not to be

hands cover eyes


i couldnt see
blinded by my pride
hands covering my own eyes
im an idol maker
my profesion
my demise

you see me
and wonder why
how silly a thing you say
why would such a small thing
want to cover so many lies




Authors note: the first paragraph is really the poem. my life is the summation of my decisions. my problem is far too often they are soley mine. not God's

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XDiscipleX A.D.
Album
The Revelation
Track
God Save Me

The poem some don't want me to write


indeed this is the truth that's hid
because some don't know what it is
truth
a long way down showing no mercy
to finder or sender
the truth is that rocky road
and that sweet rose

its serendipity and serenity
dopamine and the rapture of romance
its a ten ton wall falling and democracy spreading
its not what it means to you
its what it means to itself

its one realizing if embraced
it could be like taking a 90,000 foot leap
from a hang glider
with no parachute or thought of a prayer

but alas my friends
its also knowing that from that same leap
is salvation
truth in hand

understatement of understanding

and as we entered that elevator
going to our destinations
pressing the button to end the elevators querry
and deeply pondering into her eyes I made her wonder
so she asked
and I obliged
I said if you look deeply enough into a persons eyes
you can see what they saw
be who they were
and think as they see
but most importantly be who they be

intrigued by my line of thought she let me look
and so I began my own querry
I heard thought fought felt and did be
until it made me faint
spent
lessened
and free

then off she went
reaching her floor
glad to have met me
changed now knowing that I
see what she saw
that I was as she were
all the while thinking as she sees
knowing its important
to be as she herself sees fit to be


Authors Note: in India there is a saying: there is no point in chopping a persons nose off then giving them a rose to smell. It doesnt matter what truth you hold if you are alienating those whom you wish to reach. Always remember civility and be kind.

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Vanessa Carlton
Album
Harmonium
Track Annie

In Her Mouth Truth He Spoke

today I cried with a knife to my thigh
so I limped a lumpy mile
startled with my resolve I continued
to a friend who once knew my love
come with me
they whenced
with full on fragmented sentences
they strung together a song
a thousand chords hugging a million octaves

my life was changed

this was once a story once I thought she thought I knew
but piece by piece my life was changed

from her to me then her to him it shot to the moon
and this is where my rhythm changed

she struck a chord that insisted I cling to her heart
smiling truth occupied many vacant spaces within me
for you I fight
for him I stand
truth the communication
understood wanted loved and trusted
now my life becomes one
with the greater sender
urgency
life
happyness
now its we it commands


Authors note: God uses people to speak his truth. Dont forsake compassion.. even if youve given up on your ability to feel. God WILL bring you hope if you continually trust him.

John 8:32

32and ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.

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No Doubt
Album
Beacon Street Collection
Track:
Greener Pastures



and this not forgotten
but sent with commitment to you
dont leave this soldier in quiet solitude
still ready
with one good arm
ready to fight

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New Order
Album
Retro
Track:
Elegia (full version)

to be then not to be


I dont care
how this should start off
it has to
and so with each line
I'll remind us all of something
by exploring in something

I want to be
I want to go and see
I want in

don't tell me I am because I'm not there
in a state of want
how can am be in this as well
why concludes then I decide
but there is nowhere to be found
search is whom I ride
confusion is with whom I sometimes sip tea
all along assured I have certainty
restless is a night
where my definitions collide
worship is married to my pursuit
but divorced is what I see

then right back here beside confusion
is where I be
determined my friend
its you that I meet again
recommited is the man I'll be
duality or reality
which is the challenge to believe
forsaken is a lie I'll never give listen
because for me
I hate the evil that dwells in me

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Mai Yamane
Album
Cowboy Bebop Tank! The! Best!
Track:
Blue



noble wift*
at the time of my arrival
I had arms shorter than my intentions
legs shorter than my stature
respect not valued in the marketplace
and hair shorter than my flowing spirit
so I went
to a land that valued my intent
to men who would marvel at my stature
tell me great things
while giving my weary backpack a soft seat cushion
giving visitors the impression they had comfort to spare

far my stout legs did carry
never once an inch of growth did I see
this journey did lie to me
providence I did not see

this journey left me disillusioned
scribbled defeat on parchment
was defeat when read by me

I carried on
this knowledge now changing the journey
an embittered man
no legs hair or arms with which to carry me

***

but my song is a ballad of many
an army of chanting rings
the logic of perfect harmonium
the lull of a million swings
for I entered in this world a contender
an underdog meant not to win
for my state decimates confusion
my pasture
the wind

its for your freedom said my own heart strings
your voice I wish to hear sing
for my life is your own tarry weight
the single passion of me letting your pain in


Authors note: the first part is the despair of one person. the second part is a person who knows that hell is necessary to understand how much God loves us. knowing God swallowed an eternity of suffering for us is hope enough for every man.




(this is a deleted addendum to the poem. I deleted it because I felt the current ending expressed what love truly is adequately. Which is to say love is bearing the burden of another. In a word Sacrifice.)

and this err is no folly stake
impatience is a jester less a win
my soul is still for your liberation
to embrace loves perfect tyranny
is win






*wift- wift is not a word. but since I made it up I will give it a meaning.
wift- an indescible love realized by taking on eternal pain; unimaginable sacrifice or sacrifice to the limit of belief.

helpen

sign sign silken holy light
the chance to glorify you this night
I wish I may wish I was a knight
to drop my sword and never fight
to give to you mine
for incandescent light
free my fists my cure my life my night
do this now
so I may ever take flight

tunturia

still like tundra in a foriegn land
im waking


few hours till light
and all this will soon
be a distant farse and dream
Ill hold on to a slither
my hope won't wither
your light melts a frozen stoic dream


Authors note: one of the most intense thing you can feel... is God holding onto you.
The only thing more intense than that is having the revelation that he wont EVER let you go. He want to take you to your true hearts desire in him.

side note - Tundra comes from the Finnish word "tunturia", which means a barren land. The ground is permanently frozen 10 inches to 3 feet (25 to 100 cm) down so that trees can't grow there. The bare and sometimes rocky ground can only support low growing plants like mosses, heaths, and lichen. In the winter it is cold and dark and in the summer, when the snow and the top layer of permafrost melt, it is very soggy and the tundra is covered with marshes, lakes, bogs and streams that breed thousands of insects and attract many migrating birds.