cannons

rain rain
feel this pain

love the man gave
all in vain?

if I accept it not
hold it not?

no I say he waits
divine romance

he waits for his bride
his bride waits for him

back and forth my mind
he sees
he cares
he loves
i'm loved

but Im so disfunctional
not doing what I ought.
you dont understand what I dont do
what I continue to not due
how could you love me?

he says
I do.

obsession

why is all i want to know

wont you
let
me
be free

im not going with you
im not condemned

damn. these. chains.

you wont destroy me

I wont give in to thee

i can sing
feel
dance
sing
breath
love
rock
absorb
create
laugh
fly

this one finger can shoot lighting
though your dirty eye

i'll chop off the hand of my acuser

I WILL live free
I WILL overcome

I WONT back down
I WILL express

This dark cloud IS a passing thing
four wall blackmail
meet my two point smile
a cross with nails

four wall blackmail
meet my two point smile
a cross with nails

Samson

so I look into you
your eye body and soul

are lovely

filling me like delilah did samson

wrong apparently is the new good

judgers pass by
condemn

but never help

I understand the gangs now
pornstars with tattoed crosses

were all waiting for Jesus first disciples

telling us were free
good Samaritans who truly care
friends
who will be a community with us
exercise the demons for us
talk everyday with us

I'm no different
still haven't found what I'm looking for

like Samson maybe I'll bring it all down in one last act of redemption
God don't cut me down
don't give me a malediction
I swear I'm not a contradiction
there's just a pool of spit I'm choking in.

friendless
pointless
writing a poem because this world is heartless

a friend..

a friend instead

that's all i really wanted

alone alone

a city called alone

pain

frown

all alone

to touch and hug

a friend

but instead I clasp alone

some addiction

a bit of vice

worship

all alone

lonely

alone

in a careless world

alone.