Cross


I won't let "this" distort your love

or what you mean to me

all I know is two words then one capture it:

I'm forgiven

I'm forgiven

I'm forgiven



free

One Way


I sing for the deaf and lowly

dancing lively into traffic down a one way street

my beauty is the art of disaster
beware all who live following these feet

Now Playing - Mewithoutyou - Track - "I never said that I was brave"


pitter pat

I'm a trapped pitter pat
waiting for my boom boom crash
thunderous pow

I'm a trapped pitter pat
waiting for my enthrall

I'm just a wee pitter pat
in a world

sounding it's useless whirl


Authors Note: "Intense is the agony--
When the ear begins to hear, and the eye begins to see;
When the pulse begins to throb, the brain to think again;
The soul to feels it's flesh, and the flesh feels it's chains."

lovers made of mud

the heart of me
the heart of me

the devil did sigh
for he thought my end nigh

this heart in me
this heart in me

poison did wait
to watch this world part from me
but wait was for naught
for still two legs I stand heartily

new heart given me
new heart given me

for an ancient king
fought insurmountable odds to set me free
bigger than pride
rushing towards the plee

you pardoned me
you pardoned me

what my new king
doth I owe thee
for debt to pay
these chains of me now broken free

no longer to set foot in mud
no war of prisoner I be

for set in blood
this conquest of love
all for lovers made of mud

Ecclesiastes

He reached for the top
but there was nothing there

no pandora's box
no rocky peak

no gasping for air
no mountainous view
no pot of gold
nor silver lake to view

no rush of might
no warn of defeat

just empty grey dust
just him
looking down at his tired feet

what instigated this fool
what sparked his feat

why try to be the measure of all things
why leap a tall building
what would posses him
what illed him like unsalted meat


for all his toil
at journey's end
he stood with waking eye
searching for loss of sleep

no marching bands
nor trumpeteers

no quiet young girls to calm his jeers
no cash prize could dry his tears
no one here but him all ears

wondering what had let him steer

for all his quest led him here
vanity he exclaimed
as he stood
no chair

Now playing: Lord of the Rings:TTT - Helm's Deep



Warm it felt


bereft of reason
he woke the dark
his belly quaking
all is lost

maddened by iniquity
squeezed with dispair
he said
"is there no one to save me?"
"does a soul even care?"

but then a light parted darkness
a hand bit the cold air
he felt the warmth of a stranger
indeed quite nicely
a one did care

Bathroom

waiting for.
the bathroom.

hope my pants.
resist my fears.



Noino

onion.
whole.
eat it.
in tears.

Goodnight Tunnel

Goodnight my love
good night and good flight

it seems this tunnel I've always noticed
has taken no height

the crevices and longitude

are not the same not quite

the shadows seem more elegant
the stench of refuse left here
all are a delight

I recall a memory
but none seem to fit quite right

so it would appear reality
dimly lit
is now a beacon of light

and this old tunnel

doth now see good light


so I say this now gladly

good night tired memory
good night
good night
and
good night

sun light party


I looked at the sky
filed with light
and I watched the birds dance

kissing sunbeams
partnering with each other
flapping
laughing
and all this with no pants


I looked to the sky
staring at the gay seagulls
glaring with amazement
observing their freedom

as they danced in the sun's light
smiling happily
hugging piety

and all this
all this
all this
with no pants

Currently Playing: -hljómalind by Sigur Rós

prettier is he

the only point that matters
to me
and to you

is this

the fact that God stopped me
he redeemed the moment with every moment

prior

leading to

and present touch


the darkness disguised as light
turned ugly
as he whispered
I'm fond of you
gracefully I love you

and I'm pretty
pretty
oh so so
pretty

I'm prettier
prettier
pretty

then all at once my heart began to fluster
erupt
and explode like the crimson sundown
I witnessed this day

I'm in love you unperceptive ninny
I've fallen for one more beautiful
quicker than a sad eye can turn away

and all he said is
I'm prettier
prettier
pretty

God it seems
takes my breath away


Authors Note - I love you Jesus. Thank you. With every breath and wake.

tiny image

im a tiny child
screaming into a television screen

a small child
comprehending all that is seen

Im a tiny child
begging for a world to see
there is a world outside the tele
so much more that you can see

put aside your glowing living rooms
smash your glassy screen
no longer give listen to commercials
for wasted are your dreamy visions
unexplored are heavens means


there is a world beyond your generated imagery
there is one greater beyond your tv screen
for your god will swallow your forgotten memory
a boob tube is all "this world" sees

for my re-birthday is a new impossibility
my father now grafting me in his tree


for him I gave toss to my tele
to look at dad's arms hold someone like me


Author's note: tele= Television
"...worship is the purification of imagination by [God's] his beauty.." - Archbishop William Temple

The working people of Bethlehem

I wonder what Bethlehem and the world
were doing that day
when God stepped down from heaven
and in a manger lay

before they knew
they would be pardoned of all sin
before they knew
a babe called Jesus
would make them all new again

was the candlemaker crying
left hopeless in despair
was the woodcutter fretting
life in shambles contemplating fear

my mind wonders if the peasant girl
felt useless
in a world that gives her no more worth
than a bearded lady at the fair

did the working man lie in agony
before the beatitudes were ever sung
or maybe the man in prison
had a ray of hope before he was hung

you see God stepped down to Bethlehem
to give them hope that day
in a manger a babe lie wrapped in linen
and all were given hope
yesterday tommorow and today


Author's Note: Merry Christmas

Listening to: I love you by Giorgio Licazi

cold wind heartless rain

single leaf
in the roaring rain
cold winds
has it all left you in dismay

little leaf
ginormous winds
deafening rain
does it all seem quite inane?

poor little leaf
wreckless rain
cold hearted winds
a world of shame

it makes me think
who will take away your blame?

then all at once the sun shineth yet again
breaking through the cold wind and rain
making everyday
brighter again

Author's Note: "...In this world you will have tribulation. But be of good cheer for I have overcome the world." - Jesus Christ.

Currently Playing
Brie Stoner
Album
Nooma Soundtrack Vol. 1

Track:
Cheap

Today It Seems

i wish you could see what i see
today

they world is no longer for me in disarray

the addiction to it has gone away

my life it seems are lovely shades of grey

combining the failures and complexities

all dancing together in a strange sort of way


i look up to sky clouds and bird

to hear the sun say g'day


greeting me i smile

joyously filled with mirth

a laugh escapes

the morn never tickled me this way

I see the possibility of the twenty four hours

laid before me...

today.

shades of grey powerful


It's beautiful and mighty full

All shades of grey

mystical and all powerful

It's beautiful all powerful
these shades of grey more mighty still

they captivate and stimulate
never leave me in an understate

so glory full
never a nil
captivating me into still

these shades of grey
on my heart they pull

so beautiful
so beautiful...

Autmn Day

Lord I thank you
for this day

open mine eyes to see you

all together
new way

pirates always do get wet


for ive seen the depths of my being
and in it
there is no hope
no sanity
no peace
no goodness
no purity
no honor
no love
no perfection
no beauty
just ash
just brimstone
just hostility
just anger
just a stiffneck
simply rebellious
constantly disasterous

despair and doubt I caress
my farm produces death

but my father
my father
my father
looks at me nonethelss

freeing me from this decaying body of death
warming me from the cold winds
all entirely produced from my breath

he loves me oh how he loves me
despite my rebelliousness

this day he says
son I love you
especially your wrecklessness
take this kiss
to remember me

let it be a sail for you
in the times of your stress

remember this
my scratchy line dove

pirates

always do get wet

greatly strikingly


perception
It's funny how one thought
can disrupt the world around you

cloud you
arouse you
decieve you
break you
conflict risen about you
inside you
divide you

make you
shake you
dillude you
diffuse you

corrupt and confuse you
drain you
and at the same time name you

then another thought may come in
but this thought
saves you
uplifts you
tells you to hold on
persist and don't let the dark clouds tame you

you're captivated
turning aside in hope
pulled over sitting on an empty road
morningside sun up
clouds sifting through to bring bitter sunshine

with a stark sound brushing against
dark greys and smart violets

walking though winnowing fields
with peacful handfuls of destruction
saying "all is well with this one
joy is a hard thing to hold onto
in the face of suck sticky muck
one like this needs someone
with a great big pick up truck
hefty enough to carry loads of numbness and drudgery"

then with one coming great lines of complex imagery
all simply to great to not smash the insanity
breaking every hope belonging to misery

God saying
hold on
today
in my image I made thee
rhythm is my gift to thee
rotating like a world of dancing trees
wind
stars
and falling leaves
my motion choreographed
will carry free

In you my hope I give ye
fear not
I.
am.
always.
with thee.


Author's Note: God loves you just the way you are. Claim your name.

Currently Playing
Gorillaz
Album
Demon Days

Track:
Demon Days

Beautiful converts face


recalling what I asked you that day
the revealing of the thing
want of awe another way

I look and see what once
was not
but now is

a beautiful piece not belonging to me
but artfully put in it's place
a complex view

of your simple saving grace

pigeon then new

I asked to see the beauty
of a pigeon
colors grey and drab
beak unfit for anything
but for me to spit and stare

but then one day like floating imagery
mine eyes did see something there
the flight of a rodent butterfly
gracefully dancing in the air

for never did beauty once lift my doubt
so far into heights unaware

it seems this unfavored
be now a redemptive dove
purest of all with wings

Sky Grain


To wherest can I conclude you'll be
The day is vast
can a blind man see?
fill my air with your lungs throughout
give me breath for my stature is stout

Author's Note: dedicated to my friend davis who is going through some hard times right now. Interestingly enough if you look too closely at the picture it is really grainy. I purposely did this to the photo. But far away it looks beautiful. Perhaps sometimes in life (as in viewing the photo)we need to take a step back. Perspective is often a big picture process.

Why said I

I fear the loss of precipitation
the loveliness of it's drops
the water falling on a hot summer day
all refreshment lost

I fear the death of innocence
when man can no longer gaze long at a rose
when wilted are his leaves gone dry
soil trodden by his big toes

my concern is for that aching pain
making so many give in
the hurt pressing on a tattered soul
deceiving the eyes of hope's kin

for the glorious seed of brighter days
filled with sunshine and breezy shores within
are purposefully placed alongside blue shores
no eye unscathed will win

so listen and hope fast my love
let this all comfortably sink in
broken feet cannot measure perfect streets
to some things we must always cling

Currently Playing
John Debney
Album
The Passion of the Christ
Track:
The Stoning

Peace alongside beauty

I looked at the edge of sin
shirt gripped
backside

holding tight
my savior cried

away from the ledge
he said with tears in his eyes
this is as far as you go
don't you know without me you'll die

where are you my pretty
dont disregard the truth for a lie

I fight with you pity
do not dispair
do not bed with the father of lies

this cannot conquer you beloved
this cannot dry even one eye
for dance in the spring of my beauty
lavish yourself in my eyes

for my heart is a land of plenty
rooms filled with incense mirth and frankincense
even angels rest by my side

come now
play
and be made pretty
stay firm and realize

to be robed in my glory
is all you ever truthfully desired

Currently Playing
Delirious?
Album
Deeper The Definitive Worship Experience

Track:
What a Friend I've Found

Autumn Tried

when leaves fall
the trees are stripped bare
when leaves fall
the naked tree lays bare

when all the rustling settles
when all is said and done

wind beaten the leaves all fallen

the tried and true tree

beauty hard won

Currently Playing
Gorillaz
Album
Demon Days

Track:
Demon Days

pretty sky toned feet

used to wonder where the art went
then I looked with my neck out the door

went a few blocks down to get coffee
the whole staff were writing poetry behind the serving door

next I went to see bobbi the young butcher
he sung with his lyre to his new love

but if this weren't enough for inspiration
I thought to go for a walk down the street

all along the sidewalk were mime's
and photographer's making pictures pretty in the street

from the very store where every morning
my sister bought her finest meats

and all the day long I danced with the world
hunchbacked singing with gaiety

unaware of this new world order
this secret hidden beneath our streets

it seems life goes beyond with once we thought our pity
it seems life is beyond what we touch everyday with out feet

Currently Playing
Gorillaz
Album
Demon Days

Track:
Demon Days

Idolatry


the idols of the day
will not sweep me away

because if this is beauty
why does it suffocate me

the idols of the day
will not pave my way

my brain is to precious
my soul relentless

I will not serve this
my graven lord's presence

I will resist the temptress
my spirit

led by
some greatness

crossed by
transcendence

love or something like it

I had to see it seems
love is blind
it ran me over today
three hands hauling ass in her truck
dirty car from being in the muck

It seems love wears bifocals
but still can't see
yet she always drives way over 130

yes love is as blind as a bat
with all the fashion accessories
with not
to match

her gucci bag
along with payless shoes
coco chanel knock offs
with tribal tattoos

love it seems doesn't know down from up
doesn't know how to pull itself out
from being stuck

love doesn't know how to add one plus one
in order to get two
it keeps you up late at night
hollering the things you aught to do

its perplexing
annoying
and says really dumb things
it even makes your gag reflex flutter
and sing

when it kisses you it twitches
and says I'm not feeling all right
then after it rejoices when you leave after
that memorable night

it's not calm after a lovely day
it pulls out a revolver to shoot you
after everything in the world goes ok

so love it seems leaves one with more than doubt
it haunts you
draws you near
even if peril finds you out

Currently Playing
Jason Upton
Album
Remember
Track:
First Language

raptureness

the thought of you
rapture
everything you do
rapture
your perfect weight
rapture
caught up in memory's gaze
rapture
your eye's your hair
rapture
your laughter clearing my darkest day
rapture
for your love is nobility
rapture
bringing out the best in me
rapture
our love writes elegant poetry
rapture
romanticizing what heaven has given
rapture
for I thank the Lord above
rapture
for giving me only one true and first love
absolute rapture

Author's note- for my heart Marissa. The one whom I love. Isn't it grand, the first language is love...

Currently Playing
Giorgos Ntalaras
Album

Track
San Palo Cinema

Lynn my love

like a hard hit that can't miss
your love is on the tip of both my lips

though try I might to shake the force
I'm witless, out of ideas, and gladly amiss
waiting for your call and kiss

juicy be the syllable consonant mix
word that's like candy on my lips

its so great
like a treasure this pirate can't resist

I would deep sea dive for a booty
that gave my nose such a well smelling gift
all me shipmates would think this be to much trouble
for any treasure so often likened to madness

but I be the captain of this hear ship
and me lover be purely bliss

like a firewood gone blazing
her love is on my lips

so come here go there
and never a soul
will I find who's friendship and inner being
match her bar brawl skill, beauty and wit

I'm lost in her sea
given to love's storm
all my person raptured
love it seems is worth the grand trip

Authors note - For my love Marissa. My girlfriend who's voice and love makes me smile.

The piper did play


the piper did play
and some say

he saved a kingdom
united a land into one

the piper of whaletown
played in a blue gown
skipping merrily along his way

dancing with little ones
and very short nuns
the piper of whaletown
had all thier hearts won

then one day the king summoned
it seemed his anger flared
and from hades most certainly did come

for he was unrested
because of all the badness of life he won

play for me you gay little piper of whaletown
give me a song
or my wrath will fall on this land like dung

all the children and nuns
will no longer dance to your songs
with merry

all cheer will cease
like a matador with bulls horns stung

so play now
play quick little piper
for your king is bed with anger
your notes decide the dawn to come

so the piper did play a melody
wondering if his requiem mass
would next come

on and on his belly gave lovely note and key
on and on with harmony
on and on with melodic pleasantries

but the king did stop him
expresionless
seemingly unaffected
by the piper's musical stress

now listen here
the piper then gulped
I hear your song piper
and I do like
a song did bring melody
to a once dead life

it seems there is joy in dancing
it seems goodness can come from a heart slain
it would seem you are a medical practitioner
for a piper can cure pain

Currently Playing
1031sermonjams.com
Album
10:31 sermon jams vol. 2
Track
Idols

sin

sin is
faithless
merciless
wreckless
ruthless
carelessness
blindness
truthless
brainless
honorless
pointless
laziness
disobedience
endless
rude
crude
predictable
prideful
resentful
godless
worthless
repentless
li·centious·ness

it's artless
arrogance
impatience
heartless
shameless
beautyless
monotonous
heinous
passionless
dreamless

it's a cold dessert
with a child called baroness

all who serve it
are likened to nightmares
and cold sweats

Currently Playing
Matisyahu
Album
Live at Stubb's
Track
Close my eyes

Autumn Sea

leaves.
fall.
like water.
in waves.

Currently Playing
Mewithoutyou
Album
Brother, Sister
Track
In a Sweater Poorly Knit

save me did my cloud


i never thought it would be
gladly
here i am
bare feet
legs crossed and gently sniffling
but floating on the trees

atop a cloud

floating on the trees
floating on the trees

nothing conquering we
happy here
up here

floating with a cup of tea
looking and windy

floating on a tree
top a fluffy cloud
not a trace of misery

nothing getting the best of me here
climbing into the stratosphere
thank you cloud
because of you

oops in the wind
there goes a tear

nevermind my words draw near

as I say and realize

I'll always stay the merrier

Author's Note: Jesus Saves

Truth stopped that day

Did you not see?
With arms violent stretched
With hands bare no wit
You reached forthwith
and attempted to tear down the whole sky

A silent pity
My father hears
His son cries
With unknown misery
Arms outstretched
You grappled and tried
To tear down the entire sky

But alas in that moment
My master did care

then forthwith a child billowed
And with a wet stint
God pierced the sky
Rain like his tears did drop
Angels with sunken hair flopped
All activity in heaven stopped
To watch Robert’s heart drop


Author's Note: for Robert

Daily Feed


yes it is dying.
but who is dying.
yes it's a new day.
but who's day?

I run and I run each day brings a new song
I keep and I store
constant my fill in a cloudy storage barn

content I am
but for some reliance is on their own might
disaster be this world's caretaker
death it's captain shining bright

Currently Playing
Sarah McLachlan
Album
City of Angels
Track
Angel

eye eden


what happened to you
women?
it seems you've fallen a far way from eden

you used to be an object of reflected perfection
a man's perfect companion
a desired incense
a ballad
beauty with discretion

what happened to you women?
because I long for a companion
searching but not finding
looking at myriad shadows and smokey reflections


Authors Note - I'm single, and a bit dissapointed at whats become of womanhood...

Currently Playing
Johnny Cash
Album
The Legend of Johnny Cash
Track
Ring of Fire

simplicity

so great was his love for me
in my sin
he took up that cross
went to grave's end
died
then with all power
rose again
and set me free

Currently Playing
Hans Zimmer
Album
The Last Samurai
Track
A Hard Teacher

dream car seven


dream car seven
I said to the conductor
upon the boarding way

on the train
its destination
nonstop to Bombay

am I alright I inquired
with all Ive been through today
can anything be seen clearly
can I hold onto anything my eyes want to stay

you see I'm a dreamer
a passing waking contender
a fighting man's inspiration
a sunny day without symptom

but today you see mr conductor
I'm a foggy whimper
a disillusioned sinner
a loose necked fearer

can anything be the way I thought it to be?
can this world give me anything but misery?

I stayed the course
I fought the fight
but still it comes
still with fright

with pangs of growling
and earthquakes that wont cease
this dream escapes
no shoes
all cold feet

I tire of walking
hair and sweat irritating my feet
giving up to abandonment
on a train
no more clouds will I meet

rain won't chase me
my parallel world will cease
in my car I'll forget a memory
nightmares will fear me under the sheets

for when I wake I will be elsewhere
no more quandary to seek
all my questions will be answers
in the utopia I find
on the better side of bleak

this be my hope mr conductor
this be my reasoning for our meet
here's my ticket with hand steady
now please
show me to my seat

wept for me

and then pain came
stripped the world bare
and pain came
left only with your hand
then pain came
everything ran cold

nothing here
only one step away from alone
just you hand now
making my home
gripping me warm
new to this known

your with me now
your hand in mine
together we moan


Authors note: "I said to the man with the gated ear"give me a light that I may walk safely into the unknown" and he said to me "Put your hand into the hand of God and it will be to you better than the light and safer than the known." King George VI

Currently Playing
Bjork
Album
Greatest Hits
Track
Possibly Maybe

sky blinds

sky I see when I look up
so perfect so blue
I look up there is no folly
positively perfect
when I
look at you

then down my eyes come
like a downpour
ugh its nothing like looking at you

sky where are you I ponder
where are you and your blues
this down here is pity
no trace from what I see
no hint of you

sky don't ever leave me
don't be apart from what I see or do

because this world here is drowning in pity
nothing at all like you

Agnus Dei

It was in that moment I saw it
a construction of sorts
a defined building
a grandiose monument to his greatness
chiseled
defined
and wonderfully made

on one section he uprooted the unproductive parts
taking chisel and hammer
breaking the rotting corruption away

this man the grand designer
weaving a new world
out of iron and clay

so take heed this loving warning

give no room for self pity
not a word of damnation resting in thee

all glory to you running steady in perseverance
all praise
Agnus Dei

Currently Playing
Extol
Album
Undeceived

Track:
Undeceived

From me spoken to me

its wrong
so don't try to pet it
stroke it feed it or tempt it
don't look at it, touch it or covet it

listen here you were told to not do it
not trust in it lest you become it
its wrong so do not listen to your wicked heart plummet

what are you doing
you see who will be affected by your decision
your premeditated friendship
murderous fellowship
venomous partnership

for out of your quiet lonely solitude
a world is created
a entirety of mourners
a planet of tombs

so do not even attempt to bring me
to your sinful infirmities
your sickness and wordy platitude
I'm onto you
and all your shallow centrifuge

this ends today
no more endless journeys
my mornings
no longer wasted and used

Authors Note: Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Currently Playing
Gorillaz
Album
Demon Days

Track:
Last Living Souls

Amazing

amazing blue
as I walk through the sky
Lord I think of you.

Currently Playing
Gorillaz
Album
Demon Days

Track:
Demon Days

Prayer of Commitment


Father, I know there is still much
that needs to die in me

be my shield
protecting me from that hate
crouching, waiting to dismember me

be my support
making my backs position upright
cleansing my sinful infirmities
perfecting me
till no chains
no separation
can keep me from your heights


Author's Note: someone once said there are many ways one can slouch and distort one's posture. But there is only one way in which to stand upright. One would do well to remember this.

Currently Playing
Regina Spektor
Album
Begin To Hope

Track:
Samson

commensurate

commensurate with his love
you will evenly in this world
find hate

commensurate alongside hope
in this world you will find
an empty shot glass
dashing down a wet alley
with a collar in hand
fondling dreams
not yet his

commensurate with this note
you will find the disinterested
not looking for meaning within the lines

you see
in this world there is balance
good for hate
in for out
all waiting for the frustration to end
for whomever sees the pattern remain

step back
breath in
then slowly
trustingly
give in

Did I miss?

all access



yes.


this I wish
here where I am left wondering
did I miss?
the affection of my lover
could I have missed?

this morning it wasn't where I left it
in the afternoon when I looked
in it's stead I was in a state of perplexities and myth

my lover it seems withdrew it
this blood stain from the assassin's hit

could it be could it be
is this death's mule angry kick

where has it gone
I'm seeking my lovers kiss

left here with this thought that's shocking
did I miss?
did I miss?

Authors Note - Yes I did.

the most beautiful woman in the world

I'm in love
with the most beautiful woman in the world
in love
I am with the
most beautiful
world in the

love I'm world
she it to me

has me
losing all rational

crazy I'm
or I am
because I'm in love
with her
beautifully

Author's Note - For Leanna Jackson my first lady. Together we'll take over the world

Hand Touch Life

this wicked soul life did not find
until touched by hands divine
separation it seems had grips on me
fatherless was the foster parent that did raise me

but when I sought him he brought me out
giving me the connection that severed

fear
chastisement
and doubt

but I now know exactly whose I am
the bond has fathered me
to you Lord my master

all darkness is taken
together
my end

snow trail

I'm going to tell you I love you now
like walking on fresh snow
you're my home
we resided in our heart

trotting along a frozen alpine slope
falling from the sky are words of memories
bitter sweet is the descent

saying I love you now
gently walking on newly fallen snow
words so clean and fresh the smoke comes freely
dancing from my lips

so I'm saying I love you now
breaking in the tightly packed snow
looking back on our tracks
glancing forward wishfully
at where we've never been

ahead there is a lazy melody
a song hangs in the air
cutting gently at the silent wind


Author's Note - my girlfriend now (Leanna) is the only one Ive ever said I love you to.

Currently Playing
Stick to your guns
Album
For What It's Worth

Track:
For What It's Worth

anointed poem


Jesus came
walked through the darkness
saying I am light
all who embrace me
are now made bright

Currently Playing
Stick to your guns
Album
For What It's Worth

Track:
For What It's Worth

men we are

We are men
but God so loved us anyway


we are men
we are men

Currently Playing
Stick to your guns
Album
For What It's Worth

Track:
For What It's Worth

Leanna on the moon

You're my dream
my dream love
that which never was
what wasn't
what never was to be
what a God of mercy
for he has given you
to me


Author's note- For Leanna. My love. Another side note: even rarer is a titled poem after a person. Just isn't done. Yea she is truly special to me.

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Stick to your guns
Album
For What It's Worth

Track:
For What It's Worth

a run on sentence into you

sweet serpentine. lofty things make me insides scream. this make me soft so call me cream. so deep inside she makes me clean. often saw before but salvation by definition is new... it seems. This thing feels wonderful. It makes me glow, sparkle, glitter, gleam.

Authors Note- I never write poems specifically about people. you have to understand to me writing poetry is the same as a pastor getting up on Sunday and doing a sermon. This is my ministry. I made a vow to not do it unless it was some one I loved or very very serious about. The love poems you see are to the love of my life. my girl Leanna. To be near her and to be with her is bringing me closer to Christ. That's all I have to say on the matter. Thanks.

Currently Playing
Regina Spektor
Album
Begin To Hope

Track:
Samson

I don't know

I don't know
I don't know how to be a better man
I don't know how and when to say what you mean
I cant read minds and I can't weave gold from thread
I fumble often
I curse myself much

my heart is crumbling and decrepit
not even more than much

I'm easily thrown backward
I'm hairy to the touch
but this my love is only the beginning
like I mentioned at the beginning
I don't know much

But I do know he loves me
I do know I long for your touch
seal that with eternal serenity
sealed with a cloudy loft

you see even if I don't know anything
how to do it
how much my smell makes it worse
all I have to know is I love you
then none can make matters worse


Author's Note One of the reasons (in my opinion) why so many look for true love is because the heart longs to be understood or "loved first". The folly is to hope in another human. God has already fulfilled all your needs. Whats more he has accepted you before you were born. He loved you first exactly the way you are. Knowing what you would become. The love relationship between humans is toilsome and vein. All the hours the lovers spend trying to get one another to accept the other. Frustration sets in because the heart longs for an instant. The same instant that is given to us the moment we accept Christ. In an instant of conversion we are given an eternity of love and denied and eternity of suffering. That is perfect love. There is the love we all long for.

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Mr J. Medeiros
Album
Of gods and girls

Track:
Keep Pace

Victory March


now I stand
the spot of my defeat
the hour of my death

turned around

then the focus of my misery
now the focus of my new life


you fell
you are the one that was slew
all your teeth lie scattered
your mouth is the one full of things corupt


regardless what's felt this is a firm settled housing
no dividing mind to break it apart

its you I owe the joy of my misery
hope it seems comes through storms of doubt
fire breaths a new soldiered calamity
the thing I thought it were
is in all actuality
the source of everything

freedom
peace
new day
a true father
giving a son birthed like crops in drought

reproducing what always was
now is

seemingly what these eyes saw frightful
deemed now
a lifehouse

Currently Playing
Mr J. Medeiros
Album
Of gods and girls

Track:
Change

Mona Lisa

Mona Lisa on my mind
Mona Lisa love from high
Mona Lisa neck divine

dividing me
she has me

heart
and mind


Author's Note - my girl's nickname is Mona Lisa

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David Crowder Band
Album
Can you Hear Us?

Track:
Thank you for hearing me

Domini Thank You


have mercy O' Lord
redeem this heart of mine
make me swallow mine own enmity
devour my shallow pride

populate this throat with evergreen forests
water me and help me forsake my very eye

develop in me a pure fire to glow with memory
not letting go of the sure promises
one by one make my limpness life

fog never take delight in this bodies members
let amnesia's lull make your claws blind

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Matisyahu
Album
No place to be
Track
Jerusalem (Out of Darkness Comes Light)

I do

what was that?
do it for you?
climb and pant for you?
decide to doubt doubt for you?
to know all is in control
all in awe of you

did you say I'm to forsake all for you?
to know without sight for you?
negate the fact for you?

for you I will do
speak to dark for you
instigate a spark of light
all knowing glow stirring inside
glory dancing around you
entirety acknowledging the disciplined truth

odd though that this
no longer then now this is
far from me to remain
parting with a thought formed
letting me grieve the grieved

therefore in conclusion
I am yours
in other words with you
what's more
I do

bright lights

Lord I want you to be near
so beside myself I start a silent prayer

my want be that I ne'er fear
and longing it seems kindles you here

so I wish your love to shatter me
I wish like hope all captives set free

I long for emotion with fervent praise
shouting till chords go horse
all adoration to him
all jubilation
a new exalt
a new sunrise
a new day

this day my eye opened
let it see through to you
I wish for a new memory
for my artistry to befriend you

I wish to travel the world with purpose
walking with my head tilted to sky
my want is to see my help beheld
by every man woman cripple and child

I thank you Lord for giving this outsider a part
please ignite me so I will always remain
put mine toes on a rock heart

for you I shall never be seated in solitude
for you only a sliver of moldy cheese stains
for we know in part perfectly
yet still in me a gay leaf remains

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mr.j.medeiros
Album
of gods and girls
Track:
Constance

pornography

so its been said stop
listen
you don't listen
let loose
then you listen

whats not said is the fret
the detriment you live in
the pain she feels you intend

like a gun
a bullet goes through your
and her head

collectively you are both dead
your mediating the paul bearers end
the gain he receives the profit margin
of a two man casket
operate the cooperation of the walking dead

and on and on
we all cry incessantly
we all wait for edible bread
this horror can't be made lovely
its altogether venomous
its altogether inadequate

do you see this
are you looking at the volume
the great measure of which I've bled

but it's here where all must diminish to memory
it's here where new story shall be met
for the hope of the deplenished it surety
the tallness of monsters is fallen at the sight of a cross

it's here we find grouped the broken down trodden
finally arms cut open everything is no longer loss
no more hidden is my birth pangs promise
its here I see a heart made in fleshly moss

no more pain
no more misery
the bullet intended for selfish reason
seems insanity
suddenly I see

all is gained which is in memory
nothing is beyond redemption
no hurt to emboldened
new blood prevents all loss

not night


and we danced in that room
to that song but not that night
twas day and we both know
there was no twilight

no moon to struck
just me and you
broad was day
my room slight

this I write to you
a record of what happened
what led us to where we are now
past present intensity

at least that be my hope
another dance
another not night

but until then
we be mere poetry
missing
waiting
thinking
at least I am
about that not night

when I held you closely
motioning us onward
making a memory
of a not night

Authors Note: for leanna

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John Debney
Album
The Passion of the Christ
Track:
Resurrection

My Lord to Ye

I am a person
I leave grow live dip and bark
I tree branch sing hope even lark

if tipped
I spill pour gush ooze
or shake my fist repeating this might hurt less if I landed on my shoes

if a learned man I be
I'll perform read write rhetoric decide author or retort

all these things making me what we be
all these things never getting me closer to thee
when alls said and done
no more better they make of me
none with slight significance
if none glorified thee

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Aracely
Album
In The Sandbox
Track
Walk your way

the peace tree walk

you'll be happy to know
I failed today
walking easily the other way
blinded by my pride
this plainly I write out

giving in to anger
my hell did find me out

now what to do
disregard and put said monster at ease
feed the hunchback of ego dane
feed the strong jawed pit bull
feed the rat with cheese

no is my decision
for this is the very day he made to pull me out
writing my novela outside time's servitude
making the tall clock stout

with heel making a new pathway
leaving at curb the empty tease
this be freedom's branding tag
the real mark of peace in a soul his hand sees

for a flogging cannot bruise a righteous man
nor can tribulation run full course it's disease
for I have a perfect practitioner
the father demands my ease

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Enya
Album
Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
Track
May It Be

that then day floating on morn'

my heart's been heavy
much to long

time to make this
the last journey home

head to heavy
much to long
all weight be gone
all weight be gone

round there hither
to where Ive yet to gone

all away all away
won't be long
shan't be wrong

for he leads me
taking all crooked psalm

sing no more heavy
won't be long
won't be long

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Hans Zimmer
Album
The Last Samurai
Track
Small measure of peace

say-i-vior l-o-v-e

what is it?
all men seek it
time bows in awe of it

lovers are drawn into it
madmen even fail to kill it
regimes have yet to conquer it
alas the moon itself speaks of it

fathers bear sons and mirror it
families are binded due to their debt to it
sisters drown brothers in it
do you see it?
can you speak it?

poets still write of it
over and again we long to hear it
heaven overflows with it
give in because now you wish me to speak it

over and again we flock to it
empires fall who dominate by orphaning it
this world would be a barron womb if not for it
all watch but few intimately know it
never smelling
staying odorless

men climb mountains thinking they will find it
searching countless shores wooing it
pirates leave their treasure seeing it
and again and again we encounter it
say I it or do thee know it
how much differently a name can one give a rose
when the difference is to hold it

it even escaped Shakespeare
what a great poet

what do I speak of
love
love
love
love

so perfect it came from above
men seek it
in one another
then goes the one they love

too perfect for here I say
love
love
and again I say
love

Currently Playing
Hans Zimmer
Album
The Last Samurai
Track
Small measure of peace

bold minute

look here.
I'll pause.
transmit this to thee.
here is the smallness given.
all given to me.

a second.
the present.
the tiniest measure in time.
against my entirety.
the greatness within.
attempts to whisper me.
if this be love's choice description
then what can I make of me?


Authors note What do we have to boast about? (romans 4) We cannot even grasp God's love in this small thing we call time. In all of our so called intellect and knowledge what are we next to him? How absurd a thing for the creation be in any other position than submition and gratitude.

choices of voices

I am the voice you turn to in the night
I am your savior
I am your christ

I am the love you either
hope with or misappropriate

I am your savior
I am your christ

to name me is certain
you have already done
I've either given you courage
or enmity

I am your savior
I am your christ

you might loosen your noose
then again maybe you've hung

with me you lose
or perhaps you've won

I'm who you turn to
either the left or to the right
up or down

true purpose
or perhaps a log in man's chimney pipe

I am your savior
I am your christ

you see I am what you make of the moment
I'm the light or the darkness
at the tunnels end you see

I'm the ultimate goal of a life's earnings
when all is said and done
the spreadsheet will either read

all for himself
or all for me

so dark it turns

man feels so alone
because he never truthfully reaches out
and in turn
the world grows dark

so dark

so dark

so dark
it turns

Authors Note: Matthew 28:20
"..."lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.."

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Matisyahu
Album
Live at Stubb's
Track
Close my eyes

why im real


why I'm real?
ill tell you why
hand
foot
gut
spleen
a sigh

I breathe I touch
angered
then its you with a knife I might cut

but more likely an unkind word then touch

I hurt I feel
I reason that this you will feel
with intellect I surmise
with lust eyes fixed on a prize

I touch what I cannot see
even if that is black inside me

you see this is what makes me human
although I try and try
again and again

on the floor
kick spit growl and fuss
still I am what I am
no more
just the right amount of fire and cuss

all wrong impulses
nothing of fluff and care
oh is there someone
something
an aversion that dare?

to step within this sticky darkness
to take me out the rut
if this problem persists Ill admit
forever sure doth look like more than a black stump

but avast there is one
that did take me out
gave me hope a clean ship
a course sails and a merry stout

for him I'll attribute all fortune and fame
a pirate following his course
never to darkness do I now owe time