one more thing
in the corner of my mind

this too will past
i decide
uncover the man

emerge from the shadows
my honor never wanted to hide

Ill endure this thing
ill push ahead

no more procrastination
lazy
boyhood
not manning up
slave wages
love not taking over

dead
dead
and again I say
dead.

cannons

rain rain
feel this pain

love the man gave
all in vain?

if I accept it not
hold it not?

no I say he waits
divine romance

he waits for his bride
his bride waits for him

back and forth my mind
he sees
he cares
he loves
i'm loved

but Im so disfunctional
not doing what I ought.
you dont understand what I dont do
what I continue to not due
how could you love me?

he says
I do.

obsession

why is all i want to know

wont you
let
me
be free

im not going with you
im not condemned

damn. these. chains.

you wont destroy me

I wont give in to thee

i can sing
feel
dance
sing
breath
love
rock
absorb
create
laugh
fly

this one finger can shoot lighting
though your dirty eye

i'll chop off the hand of my acuser

I WILL live free
I WILL overcome

I WONT back down
I WILL express

This dark cloud IS a passing thing
four wall blackmail
meet my two point smile
a cross with nails

four wall blackmail
meet my two point smile
a cross with nails

Samson

so I look into you
your eye body and soul

are lovely

filling me like delilah did samson

wrong apparently is the new good

judgers pass by
condemn

but never help

I understand the gangs now
pornstars with tattoed crosses

were all waiting for Jesus first disciples

telling us were free
good Samaritans who truly care
friends
who will be a community with us
exercise the demons for us
talk everyday with us

I'm no different
still haven't found what I'm looking for

like Samson maybe I'll bring it all down in one last act of redemption
God don't cut me down
don't give me a malediction
I swear I'm not a contradiction
there's just a pool of spit I'm choking in.

friendless
pointless
writing a poem because this world is heartless

a friend..

a friend instead

that's all i really wanted

alone alone

a city called alone

pain

frown

all alone

to touch and hug

a friend

but instead I clasp alone

some addiction

a bit of vice

worship

all alone

lonely

alone

in a careless world

alone.

non poetic crush

Now Playing: A way of life by Hanz Zimmer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0AC4ovCUs4Y


sometimes I sit here
and think of thee

I wish I might
that you were free

the bond of man
that distantly clings o thee

warped obsession
that's in me

id wed
id love
i hope
in a hallow you plus me

long lengthy medows
no long states of seperation
calmness
gazing
my eyes not parting from thee

my hope my hope
my distant shallow hope
why do men cling
to warped frustration
that keeps them roped

no sacrifice
Currently Watching: http://vimeo.com/2768429

I asked Jesus how much I had to give

he simply replied more

I asked Jesus how much more for him I had to live

he simply replied
more


I asked Jesus how far I had to go

he simply replied
more

I asked Jesus how much I had to forgive
he simply replied
more

I asked Jesus how can I possibly to the ungrateful give

he told me simply
why not more?

for all at once our father did give
for all at Calvary he did give
our life a response
to what he did

for on that cross he did
not see
all wrong created being
did to he
our friend our father
now we can call thee
no enemy
no foe
pardoned

because he extended a hand
not asking why
just giving to you and me.

walk me not and talk is pretty

Currently Listening to - http://www.amazon.com/Theme-For-The-Elthenbury-Massacre/dp/B001CQFYZM


I
eat
the pretty
but reminded of how I'm ugly
I eat the pretty but
yet

Im so ugly

I love
the pretty

but ugly

I enjoy the beauty
is it becuase I'm muddy

I dine a walk and love to gander
oh how the lines
pregression and waltzing lines

fill my soul
release the toxins
that bind

Lord save me
from my own mind

laughable petty
but it tears at me
eating like these lines

in the dungeon this pantheon
form the corridors of my mind

are all this shallow
alone am I?
regretfully this small miniscule road is mine

all the world and all I own
are contained in it's wind

to and fro
round it goes
the path
it takes
all
in me

the path
it rolls
going
until it consumes
all of me

not strong
not lovely
not awesome am I

just walking
sometimes weary

but am I to walk alone
he contests I'm not
and that he walks with me

and this
is all I know
humbly these feet growl amen.

Now Listening to - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAZq74-Qe7g

peace twas it


and so once again
inside
the one thing that I fought
crept in

but fought I did
nevertheless

indside I died

the wench I said I'd leave alone
performed a feat and made me cry

dry tears nonetheless
performing a feat few wanted or cared

to try

but broke now is my prized pony

she did it
she did it

all with no effort

as mangled as her mind she did it
all to easy she did it

so I drag my feet long the dirty road called delta

sittin' on a rock stargazing
just fighting my evils

trying not to let satan in

sittin' on a rock star gazin

tryin' not to let the demons in..



Authors Note- Whatever you hope in make damn sure it can't let you down. Make sure death itself can't touch it. Or it will crush your hope.. eventually...

Plastic


We are are who we pretend we are.
we are who we ought not be.
we land on isle of placebo medicines.
a hopeless oasis.
not making us any free.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yW0_xHmhUco

Abdicate

dance
dance
yet again I say
dance

abdicate self
remembering not
for other is falling
forget him not

neglect your own boot straps
folly this is not

dance it has been said


forget self...
and dance...

diablo

I wish it would just go away
I wish it would go away
I wish and I wish
tear and rip
please help me miss
because I wish
I wish
that this would just go away

Set Sun Set not yet

Fret not
let your heart rest
because the sun will not set

whatever may come
what else wont let
give not vacancy to unrest
because the sun will
wont
not ever
set

come crashing waves
come disrupting wreck
dont be purturbed
becuase this sun
a mighty one
will
not now
nor ever ever
set

Authors note- Shalom.

Mashiach


This. This.
Will never end.

One day church.
we will meet over there
then.

In a banquet a feast
fit for kings
and honored guests

This. This.
Will never end.


I'm telling you all
we will at once at times edge
be there over where
when time itself ends

a grand reunion
dancing singing
with all our closest friends.

Where mirth unfettered
and jubilee never ends

come one and all to Zion
this story came not from men
come lose yourself in the rapturous poetry

because
This. This.
will never end.

All surrounded by blinding lights
all centered like a flock
our shepard and a grand chorus of amen's
Shalom be our bread

the name
the only name that can give life to our feet of misery
heaven
a name worthy to wipe away all life's pain

fruitless

sad to say
this organic thing
living in me today

a forbidden desire
a faulty sink

eyes that glow
hair a pretty shade
breasts that gleam
smile deceitful

my heart a shade mean
mean
mean
mean


like Samson I shaved my head
bald and clean
unfortunate my gratitude
polka dot stockings
prancing around
making a scene


I'm weakened by the now
hearing with my eyeballs
feeling my way to the seen

now is my port destiny
eventual is to far to walk
tomorrow is what is truthfully mean

my hearts lifestyle petty
it's a house straw brick sturdy

glass houses full of rocks can't be seen

Now Playing - Luti-Kriss - (Bonus Track) - Album - Throwing Myself


Caterpillar Arm

caterpillar caterpillar
turned into a fly
caterpillar caterpillar
grew an arm
reached out and touched sky


you see I shot the mailman
the messenger offended my eye

the letter was delivered a year too early
so I turned him into a dirt pie

for all my expectations
for all my work is a fulfilled pity

this world works without my satisfaction
there appears to be a greater I and again a greater eye


sitting humbly with variety
still silent and relaying to the listener a defeated sigh

pride my un-maker
my undoing
attempting to run away with my mind

so no longer do I pretend I'm dressed in fine linen
throwing this here arm up

God
I give up
its your show now

not
it

them

nor I

Look again

look again
there is something pretty there
something not so dirty about the air

some clean in that look
perhaps its not so infested
give it a chance
look
and again look


its me
I am that

one you turn away from
a dirty window
soiled with the black

deep inside
there something worthwhile

but go a bit farther
outcast a smile

I'm on the other side of willow creek
underneath your roasting chimney
in fact

I'm your dirty window needing cleaning
but still on me living water kisses in drops

look again

would consideration be sacrilege?

I hope this inspires you

I hope you one day will end

I hope for your interrupted reality

in finding out

there is one thing in
and simultaneously out this world

that will never

ever end

I need words

my words hit the wind
and told me

it would soon be bright against the day

my hope hit the wind
astounded at this thing

carrying it

taking it away


my words and hope flighty with wonder
astounded
can there be anything better said they
is there greater?
are we really being swept away?

my reality hit the wind
but this is where I now leave you

this is where I get carried away
my doubt all mangled like confetti

there is a greater
it's real
I'm going away...

Forgive and never met

Light shine
greater than me

shine mine
why?
grace is free