Currently Playing
Mr J. Medeiros
Album
Of gods and girls

Track:
Change

Mona Lisa

Mona Lisa on my mind
Mona Lisa love from high
Mona Lisa neck divine

dividing me
she has me

heart
and mind


Author's Note - my girl's nickname is Mona Lisa

Currently Playing
David Crowder Band
Album
Can you Hear Us?

Track:
Thank you for hearing me

Domini Thank You


have mercy O' Lord
redeem this heart of mine
make me swallow mine own enmity
devour my shallow pride

populate this throat with evergreen forests
water me and help me forsake my very eye

develop in me a pure fire to glow with memory
not letting go of the sure promises
one by one make my limpness life

fog never take delight in this bodies members
let amnesia's lull make your claws blind

Currently Playing
Matisyahu
Album
No place to be
Track
Jerusalem (Out of Darkness Comes Light)

I do

what was that?
do it for you?
climb and pant for you?
decide to doubt doubt for you?
to know all is in control
all in awe of you

did you say I'm to forsake all for you?
to know without sight for you?
negate the fact for you?

for you I will do
speak to dark for you
instigate a spark of light
all knowing glow stirring inside
glory dancing around you
entirety acknowledging the disciplined truth

odd though that this
no longer then now this is
far from me to remain
parting with a thought formed
letting me grieve the grieved

therefore in conclusion
I am yours
in other words with you
what's more
I do

bright lights

Lord I want you to be near
so beside myself I start a silent prayer

my want be that I ne'er fear
and longing it seems kindles you here

so I wish your love to shatter me
I wish like hope all captives set free

I long for emotion with fervent praise
shouting till chords go horse
all adoration to him
all jubilation
a new exalt
a new sunrise
a new day

this day my eye opened
let it see through to you
I wish for a new memory
for my artistry to befriend you

I wish to travel the world with purpose
walking with my head tilted to sky
my want is to see my help beheld
by every man woman cripple and child

I thank you Lord for giving this outsider a part
please ignite me so I will always remain
put mine toes on a rock heart

for you I shall never be seated in solitude
for you only a sliver of moldy cheese stains
for we know in part perfectly
yet still in me a gay leaf remains

Currently Playing
mr.j.medeiros
Album
of gods and girls
Track:
Constance

pornography

so its been said stop
listen
you don't listen
let loose
then you listen

whats not said is the fret
the detriment you live in
the pain she feels you intend

like a gun
a bullet goes through your
and her head

collectively you are both dead
your mediating the paul bearers end
the gain he receives the profit margin
of a two man casket
operate the cooperation of the walking dead

and on and on
we all cry incessantly
we all wait for edible bread
this horror can't be made lovely
its altogether venomous
its altogether inadequate

do you see this
are you looking at the volume
the great measure of which I've bled

but it's here where all must diminish to memory
it's here where new story shall be met
for the hope of the deplenished it surety
the tallness of monsters is fallen at the sight of a cross

it's here we find grouped the broken down trodden
finally arms cut open everything is no longer loss
no more hidden is my birth pangs promise
its here I see a heart made in fleshly moss

no more pain
no more misery
the bullet intended for selfish reason
seems insanity
suddenly I see

all is gained which is in memory
nothing is beyond redemption
no hurt to emboldened
new blood prevents all loss

not night


and we danced in that room
to that song but not that night
twas day and we both know
there was no twilight

no moon to struck
just me and you
broad was day
my room slight

this I write to you
a record of what happened
what led us to where we are now
past present intensity

at least that be my hope
another dance
another not night

but until then
we be mere poetry
missing
waiting
thinking
at least I am
about that not night

when I held you closely
motioning us onward
making a memory
of a not night

Authors Note: for leanna

Currently Playing
John Debney
Album
The Passion of the Christ
Track:
Resurrection

My Lord to Ye

I am a person
I leave grow live dip and bark
I tree branch sing hope even lark

if tipped
I spill pour gush ooze
or shake my fist repeating this might hurt less if I landed on my shoes

if a learned man I be
I'll perform read write rhetoric decide author or retort

all these things making me what we be
all these things never getting me closer to thee
when alls said and done
no more better they make of me
none with slight significance
if none glorified thee

Currently Playing
Aracely
Album
In The Sandbox
Track
Walk your way

the peace tree walk

you'll be happy to know
I failed today
walking easily the other way
blinded by my pride
this plainly I write out

giving in to anger
my hell did find me out

now what to do
disregard and put said monster at ease
feed the hunchback of ego dane
feed the strong jawed pit bull
feed the rat with cheese

no is my decision
for this is the very day he made to pull me out
writing my novela outside time's servitude
making the tall clock stout

with heel making a new pathway
leaving at curb the empty tease
this be freedom's branding tag
the real mark of peace in a soul his hand sees

for a flogging cannot bruise a righteous man
nor can tribulation run full course it's disease
for I have a perfect practitioner
the father demands my ease

Currently Playing
Enya
Album
Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
Track
May It Be

that then day floating on morn'

my heart's been heavy
much to long

time to make this
the last journey home

head to heavy
much to long
all weight be gone
all weight be gone

round there hither
to where Ive yet to gone

all away all away
won't be long
shan't be wrong

for he leads me
taking all crooked psalm

sing no more heavy
won't be long
won't be long

Currently Playing
Hans Zimmer
Album
The Last Samurai
Track
Small measure of peace

say-i-vior l-o-v-e

what is it?
all men seek it
time bows in awe of it

lovers are drawn into it
madmen even fail to kill it
regimes have yet to conquer it
alas the moon itself speaks of it

fathers bear sons and mirror it
families are binded due to their debt to it
sisters drown brothers in it
do you see it?
can you speak it?

poets still write of it
over and again we long to hear it
heaven overflows with it
give in because now you wish me to speak it

over and again we flock to it
empires fall who dominate by orphaning it
this world would be a barron womb if not for it
all watch but few intimately know it
never smelling
staying odorless

men climb mountains thinking they will find it
searching countless shores wooing it
pirates leave their treasure seeing it
and again and again we encounter it
say I it or do thee know it
how much differently a name can one give a rose
when the difference is to hold it

it even escaped Shakespeare
what a great poet

what do I speak of
love
love
love
love

so perfect it came from above
men seek it
in one another
then goes the one they love

too perfect for here I say
love
love
and again I say
love

Currently Playing
Hans Zimmer
Album
The Last Samurai
Track
Small measure of peace

bold minute

look here.
I'll pause.
transmit this to thee.
here is the smallness given.
all given to me.

a second.
the present.
the tiniest measure in time.
against my entirety.
the greatness within.
attempts to whisper me.
if this be love's choice description
then what can I make of me?


Authors note What do we have to boast about? (romans 4) We cannot even grasp God's love in this small thing we call time. In all of our so called intellect and knowledge what are we next to him? How absurd a thing for the creation be in any other position than submition and gratitude.

choices of voices

I am the voice you turn to in the night
I am your savior
I am your christ

I am the love you either
hope with or misappropriate

I am your savior
I am your christ

to name me is certain
you have already done
I've either given you courage
or enmity

I am your savior
I am your christ

you might loosen your noose
then again maybe you've hung

with me you lose
or perhaps you've won

I'm who you turn to
either the left or to the right
up or down

true purpose
or perhaps a log in man's chimney pipe

I am your savior
I am your christ

you see I am what you make of the moment
I'm the light or the darkness
at the tunnels end you see

I'm the ultimate goal of a life's earnings
when all is said and done
the spreadsheet will either read

all for himself
or all for me

so dark it turns

man feels so alone
because he never truthfully reaches out
and in turn
the world grows dark

so dark

so dark

so dark
it turns

Authors Note: Matthew 28:20
"..."lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.."

Currently Playing
Matisyahu
Album
Live at Stubb's
Track
Close my eyes

why im real


why I'm real?
ill tell you why
hand
foot
gut
spleen
a sigh

I breathe I touch
angered
then its you with a knife I might cut

but more likely an unkind word then touch

I hurt I feel
I reason that this you will feel
with intellect I surmise
with lust eyes fixed on a prize

I touch what I cannot see
even if that is black inside me

you see this is what makes me human
although I try and try
again and again

on the floor
kick spit growl and fuss
still I am what I am
no more
just the right amount of fire and cuss

all wrong impulses
nothing of fluff and care
oh is there someone
something
an aversion that dare?

to step within this sticky darkness
to take me out the rut
if this problem persists Ill admit
forever sure doth look like more than a black stump

but avast there is one
that did take me out
gave me hope a clean ship
a course sails and a merry stout

for him I'll attribute all fortune and fame
a pirate following his course
never to darkness do I now owe time

Currently Playing
Gary Jules
Album
Mad World
Track
Mad World

walking slightly alone

thank you lord
I thank you

I thank because there is no one beside me

no wife sister mother or earthly father to guide me
none but you beside me

all have failed all have left me sickly
parting with sureness they fail me

so in my solitude I thank you
leaving all behind I thank you

giving me love to go beyond hurt I thank you
leading me with love to go beyond
thank you

letting go of pain I run on home
toward a light I've not known

with each slight moment I leave here
with every right decision I resist here
every moment
not here

Waltz through the apocolypse


and the world did end
but we still dressed up that night
the people did war
but we waltz in our favorite hall
afterwards the bombs did confess a sweet still light
admitdly we were in awe
at the serenity of it all
how could it be
walking so lightly
admist the war the world did fight

so yes we did
dance and move alongside fright
civil we remained
despite
despite

though you might not believe
and though we will insist few might
the world did not end that day
the apocolypse did not come
earth had no real disaster in sight

and why
why you ask
do bomb shelters and rubble erase our midnight?
no we respond
the end isnt nigh
because we danced
we danced on with and through moonlight
caressing the union
in our hearts
despite

Author's note: a poem about hell, the end of the world, and heaven

heart string

this heart is yours
please water it

grope it
poke it
exasperate
it

confuse it
relate to it
play music with it
plug your ipod nano into it

but use it
its yours
so please
please water it

dont ignore it
when it speaks
answer it

Ill pay the bill
long distance charges are fine
this heart has an ok credit check
just dont leave home without thinking about me

finally

I say to you

again

water it
and think of me

Currently Playing
Bjork
Album
Post
Track
You've been flirting again

banana was me

if I were honest id be a ripe banana
theres no more time here in the sun
no way nor room for here and me to be

my decision is one of an informed fruit
knowing exactly why I'm here
who will eat me
even the time I'll fall from the tree

like I said I'm a ripe banana
ready to make love to nature in harmony

I'm smarter than my creator
no patience is what I need

I know it all and have seen it before
nothing can surprise a fruit
with teeth


Author's Note:

Psalm 8

1 O LORD, our Lord,
How excellent is Your name in all the earth,
Who have set Your glory above the heavens!

2 Out of the mouth of babes and nursing infants
You have ordained strength,
Because of Your enemies,
That You may silence the enemy and the avenger.

3 When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have ordained,
4 What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?
5 For You have made him a little lower than the angels,[b]
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.

6 You have made him to have dominion over the works of Your hands;
You have put all things under his feet,
7 All sheep and oxen—
Even the beasts of the field,
8 The birds of the air,
And the fish of the sea
That pass through the paths of the seas.

9 O LORD, our Lord,
How excellent is Your name in all the earth!

Currently Playing
Jason Upton
Album
Dying Star
Track
Burning in the sky

writ

now late
in this hour
I wonder this
well two but the latter
I might almost let miss

will people wisen up
and realize the true nature of why I post this
why poetry is dagger
slowly ripping up
the perpertrator of said writ
each pen stroke giving clue
to what makes the creator tick

my second thought hopefully giving new life
to those who do not fear poetry
who give no strong arm
to the power of a written wit

my pondering seemingly takes me to a place
where darkness becomes light
after being affected by life's kick
seeing hope after the wind all but left my lips
speaking life after being sure thats it

to care
after the quiet dim light
was most surely about to quit

not from me
does this warm candle stay lit


Author's note: Creator in the poem is a double Reference. One meaning refering to the writer and the second God. The God reference is secondary but it refers to how writing can bring one closer to God. In essence if writing is worship (meaning you do it for God) then you find God when writing.

Currently Playing
Beloved
Album
Failure On
Track
Death To Traitors

true love on thought

One wonders
do you know?
what makes a kiss meaningless
the element of its meaninglessness
when all your hopes are not recieved
left alone
loves romance not a conquest

I wonder
have you pondered
what makes true loves kiss not true bliss
feeling coldness after tasting spring on your lips

idle minds flow with dirt along steady streams
but i warn you with this
even though no man can avoid suffering

for a cold day in hell is in store for any man
who's kiss is later turned
to one man holding his warmth alone
wandering

Currently Reading
Heroes, Gods and Monsters of the Greek Myths
Author
Bernard Evslin





the eleventh hour

and as that hour
boots laced
came and stormed
humanity spoke its same old song

"we search and look but do not see
we know what we want so to each his own mind.
just let us be."

but closer this hour did march
ignored it was
the cries above
telling all to one song march

mercy the few said
these people are too far off

but like chicken little love did plead
and to no avail
the 12th hour came
self
lost
nothing indeed

Author's note: a poem about the end of the world. The eleventh hour is a scientific term. It refers to the last moment before change is possible. In case you are wondering they all pretty much say that's where earth is unless we change the way we live on planet earth as we know it.

wip.warnerbros.com/11thhour

as this iron wall falls on me
breaking every moving thing you see
turning all to blood and grey
the wiltering world did fade away

turnt to the past of death
now embracing the requiem mass sung by graceful silhouettes

spread across the ominous caskets all aloud
all screaming
all shouting
this day you meet God

deeper I go into calamity
meaning all the while
this death be my only certainty

for the world itself has chewed me out
I have nothing left
no mind with which to spout

ideas ego pride
nor vanity
there is nothing left
no more
nothing


yet now
I see

the world will not end... you'll see

it's not a shame
for I am alive
and free
and breathing

nothing is dying
because

im here
thinking
creating
laughing
crying


Im not me
him
gave me no boundary

so then
I laugh
stay calm
rise
and ignore the nuclear bomb

the world will and might end
but I'll still grill some fries
with a side order of cheese
coke
smiles

Author's Note: stay inspired, because there IS a reason to. a poem for fans of John 14:19

Currently Playing
Gorilla Biscuits
Album
Gorilla Biscuits
Track
Finish What You Started

anger management

I want
I were
I wish

Id rather be poor and loved and understood
loved by the one I understood

than be rich and wanted and misunderstood
having nothing
wanting everything



dear lord
on my knees
praying
stop this torture please
fists clenched
hear me please
brow tightening
so tight I cant see

but Ill leave one ear open
so I can hear thee
begging
believing you'll have mercy
realizing
this is something not promised to me
I know
death is what i should recieve in leu of free

but still I ask
send me the lover
understanding me


Author's note: I'm tired of being a pissed off. I just want to be unerstood. anyone ever fee like that?

Currently Playing
Coldplay
Album
A Rush Of Blood to the Head
Track
Clocks

love's first sight

and as I looked
deeply as it were
in her light eyes
I knew
what at once I did not firstly see

the first site
was love
upon reflection
this conclusion came to me

Currently Playing
Howard Shore
Album
Lord of t he Rings: The Two Towers
Track
Evenstar

battlehon

how will you overcome the darkness and embrace it
to be with it is to deny the wondrous light

how will you stroke then curse it
for it knows no friend only enemy

a pity it is
your swinging heart wont win
for evil knows no boundary
and shows no man's land any quarter

the things i have seen
all from men who give in

even me and my poor choices
cost me an eye and a leg
which left my walk unsteady

so listen to words that I say
my child please take another path
today
away

for hate will take all you love
spreading dark on all those places you once knew plenty


Author's Note: Gandalf: "there was never much hope. Just a fool's hope."

photo by me


in you


ill write this now
because ive no one to write it to
to all who went aloof
bringing a distorted thought through

to you my unknown dopamine
my love so sweet
with heart serene
eyes like golden tears
made for me
did i mention my body is mostly rain

lovely hips like dunes
my favorite desert scene

breasts like dew
after the morning is done
giving moisture to I that lay on the plain

lovely is your insight
integrity your presight

caught this beggar
one who wishes to be a man
not after the worlds heart
flexing my muscles
shaving my mustache
tattoos glistening
your manly man

together we ride into the night
heaven it seems
delights in a love like us

back and forth we ride into the night
labeling each star we hit that night
giving seed to the earth that night
proportioning matter into that night

you're lovely and it seems to me
I will love you for the rest of my life
but not for me
for him we write this unstorybook like delight

peddling a tandom through certain heights
this is whats missing
defining what we all know we want to
because we understand
we just might

Authors note: this is a love poem to all the lovers

seeking a distance


praying one day
the spirit of the Lord said to me

different from most you are not
because your heart is full of idolotery
pride be your sin of choice
thinking the best
of your motives
thoughts
moving backwards in what you seek

the truth of the matter is
you could be the robber
con man
murderer
or lying priest

it could be you that performs that date rape
or passes a bar exam because you decided to cheat

put you in the wrongly right situation
desperate and despondent
you would be in the farmers store stealing pig feet

to pure in heart to be the next mussolini?
then examine the hate i saw in you
just last week

and if a lifetime you avoid these giant monsteries
having no fangs or werewolf feet

an eternity of your centrality could be a misery
for kissing at a mirror
is not the same
as minding the clouds to guide your feet

Currently Playing
Jonni Greth
Album
Jonni Greth
Track:
Bride of Christ/the Adulteress

pride, let go of I

important to me
whats not
but is
won't come from me

pride is the tale
the subtle yet brief sin that grips me

contempt is me
ruling I do not know how to get along with me

accepting the smallness in state that pride developed this to be

in other words I look in the mirror and alas bigger me
loathing then loving the titanic
ship I will sink listening to the promise of rocky sea

when will I learn
to be useful and truthful
I need to learn freedom anatomy

Currently Playing
Constantine (DVD)
Staring
Keanu Reeves, Rachel Weisz



good be life


good is
the end after long
the perseverance that made you strong
the long haul some call race
scars stretched across a battered face

defending the weaker's honor
when all around them wont be strong
not giving in
being the hope when all others call you wrong

its being there when everyone wont
not taking an easy road
not giving in
having ones life determined
by something other than crooked rote

for when I stand
on my haunted life's driven edge
on a podium i'll stand
with no prepared speech
my life will have said

he put two gloves on
with stance
shorts
and the will to fight
no words or pride to speak of
he simply got in the ring
obeying the bell
he fought
flew
and gave fight.

Currently Playing
Vertical Horizon
Album
Everyting You Want
Track:
Everything You Want

frailty


I am not a rock
I'm chards glass and bone
a fascinating thing
one who feels
proud
self righteous
hungry
poor
wealthy
pretty
hallow
and alone

no I'm not a rock
but I am just a being formed in futility and fragility
fused with the promise of a stronger caretaker
making my weak his strong

moon seen

a cloudy moon
is still a moon
indeed

reach

we build our buildings
tall and wide
futility it seems prevails
for it seems despite all efforts
our feet
never reach the sky

stellar memory

no
it's not going to be ok
but it is
knowing this leaves me out of my mind

dont worry I aint
even though it seems as if I is

i worry dizzy and spin
then carry on like I isn't

cry and worry till I'm no longer pretty
then go to balls and dance like a prince

hoping here and knowing this here
gives me fuel for disaster

no heroics here
no cape here
no surprise here
i'm as sorry as I sound
here

only thing
a look at a star my star above
thinking saying and knowing
there is not a weakness there
that light my light

makes me think

he shines
during all those times I didn't


Author's Note: for fans of Romans Chapter 8

fear green irony

be careful
for the thing you desire will be what you get
a little green girl wanted fame
but later on she became a silloutte

the boy who could whip together yarn
grew up
used his talents and moved out west
he wanted to make the biggest sock in all mankind
he hasnt been heard of since
the aftermath it seems
left him suffocating in lint

and do you remember courtney
with the lashes oh so long and pretty
her hair she thought kept her young
until it gave way
this happening
it seems is such a pity

the doctors would say
so long
aurivoir
auf wiedersehen
adu
such a loss they thought
happenstance giving this fruitcake
to a girl such as you


you see our desires make us
tall
dark
troll like
godly
scuzy
and witty

we're all fenced in with doubt
not remembering a time
with no fence
no trolls
no scuzy
just a God
triumphant
over our take on our witty

love not my thing above your desire


I cast my cares and my loneliness aside
shattered ideas
made with the world that teaches me pride
for you my lord jesus these cares
on a ferry
away
seated next to it my lies

one knee down
giving exit the air of false words I formerly admired
you
me
and
I breathe
we
together
will breathe now
till' it becomes
our not my

you and us
your life is my life
your glory
my desire


Authors note: for cliff

Currently Playing
Jason Upton
Album
Remember
Track:
Lullaby

weak

imagine these words
with silently

this world is to much
so I cry out
this world makes me cry mercy so much
this I sound out
whenever I need touch
surrender is what this soul wants much

but I do this not
because when I want you
whenever this world is to much
I cry outward

this all is much to much
so for you I reach the more much
its you I seek
too weak
to pure
but by grace I touch

the apocalypse


congratulations folks we made it
year two thousand four hundred and twenty nine

my heart the state of apocalypse
wish I might
that it was a form of nightmare
constructed by my twisted mind

the order here is chaos
a world of selfish design
here I'm king queen son and pauper

my majesty
the tongue which with I drown

Im a mocker I am a mocker
pointing a middle finger at the crown

here I lay devastated
in ashes
for the world is my unsmiling oyster

pausing at the bay

my mouth opens


now here this subjects

welcome to the kingdom
of frown

Currently Playing
Melissa Etheridge
Album
Road Less Traveled
Track:
I need to wake up

Voice

dear God let someone hear me
no need to wake and crawl then die
if you will let this voice be heard
it need not be violently sent away
thrown down suddenly
forcefully tortured
left only with the company of the afraid alongside a lie

why be given a voice but no audience
a message meant but not be heard

dear God let someone hear me
this courier given legs with stay
strong as a fat man's belly
more courage than a bearded lady asking out a guy

please give wind to my vocational melody
this my purpose
hope be engraved in this mind

dear God please hear me
message given to receivers
sent now
because I believe seeds don't die

Authors Note: does anyone care about poetry anymore?

Currently Playing
War of Ages
Album
War of Ages
Track:
Only the Strong Survive

fight song


done am I
waiting for things to be to get easier
my journey is far and readied
past a silent sunday
all conformed ideas heady
not here
no place mat on which for them to lay

fighting with confidence
again comes along a darker today
guiding light shining a pathway
leading me there
to the moment
right before the sun concludes the day

Currently Playing
Bruce Springsteen
Album
Harry Chapin Tribute
Track:
Remember When The Music

the tap dancing queen with no crown

this day
this sad day
as i glance her
posture positioned by her stance
gaiety lost
joy in search of her years
a tap dancer she was
but her life in my opinion was in tears

for her to dance was to make a dollar
no joy in it said she
for she hustled to make a dollar

her only sole reason to be

for in this world
we all lack
true but thats not the point to me

because to me the true pity
is to be able to dance with no joy
no fulfillment
in the grace that I see

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Bruce Springsteen
Album
Harry Chapin Tribute
Track:
Remember When The Music

do this to remember me

as I walked that day
I came across some railroad tracks
and near those tracks was a man
all alone
in the middle of a dusty town
and as he sat he sung alongside his guitar
struming
hope in his voice
and at this I did stare

with a twinkle nestling his eye
at this site I did stare
so I asked the man
why he sat
alone
and did sing

the man
sparks in his voice he said
for me a railroad is a memory
and when I sit here
my voice it feels travels for miles
a song is more than a entertainers footstool
sometimes if sung right
it makes the very world cry

for dirt roads have emotions
and empty towns still a face
the only songs made for vanity
are the ones we hesitate to make


Authors Note: Put ALL of your hope in Him.

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Jonni Greth
Track:
Child

all i'm given, yes I might

what kind of God are you?
wanting true love's first kiss
from this earthen vessel
wisdom says
with my smooch I will miss

what kind of majesty are you
to stare compassion at me
knowing my heart will misfire
missing you
disgracing our bliss

what this is
and what I can make it to be
a perfect love
almost to big
to wrap my arms around thee

for love it seems
isnt a thing pictured by me right
I thought it clandestine
searching wrongly
not seeing it on that trip


the one where I traveled
when it wasn't so bright
so finding you
brought day from night

I love you
I love you
thank you
with all I can might

Author's note: a poem against pride

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Charlie Hall
Album
Passion: Sacred Revolution: Songs from OneDay03
Track:
All The Earth

aloft

hope is knowing
that it cant be crushed

feeling the hurt
the dirt

scrape

like the kings men falling down

but in the midst
lifting again
through it all
living again

knowing nothing can shatter
everything composing you
for eyes belong above

floating above
everything holding eyes captive
never solitude
never left

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Album
Sermon Jams Vol 5.
Track:
John Piper - Hope

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today

i woke up today again
and again it tried to destroy me

this morn quite early I rose
and indeed it failed to unmake me

indestructible is my hope
unshakable my rock

for I hope
and fall
and rise
and pray

in me lives something
which cannot be swayed

this is proven
today
today
today
and today

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Germfree Adolescents
Track:
Germfree Adolescents

her eternally

I want to look into her eyes
and give her eternity

I want to look deeply into her eyes
and give her an eternity

I want to be her eyes
eternally

Lamentations (EICHAH)

amidst this earth there is sky
amidst this earth there is sky
amidst this earth
there
is
sky


Authors Note: dedicated to my homeless Christian friend dawn

This Too Shall Pass by Helen Steiner Rice

If I can endure for this minute
Whatever is happening to me,
No matter how heavy my heart is
Or how dark the moment may be

If I can remain calm and quiet
With all the world crashing about me,
Secure in the knowledge God loves me
When everyone else seems to doubt me

If I can but keep on believing
What I know in my heart to be true,
That darkness will fade with the morning
And that this will pass away, too

Then nothing in life can defeat me
For as long as this knowledge remains
I can suffer whatever is happening
For I know God will break all of the chains

That are binding me tight in the darkness
And trying to fill me with fear
For there is no night without dawning
And I know that my morning is near.

only


a love so pure
dedicated
and meant to be

so long this thing
my unfaithfulness to thee
my heart still fashioned
to hold a matrimonial desire
its you my love I want
leading the narrow path


you

my only desire

mono culture


let's travel to this land
though the distance is far
we ought not forget
who we are
who we are

this sojourn be great
although we are at threats whim to be marred
this we shall resolve
to remain who we are
who we are

on the floating ship
past gates made with foggy day
packing in suitcase insurmountable odds
when our clothes we unfold at ports not ours
we shall stay and ready with this saying

we shall remain
who we are
who we are

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Lifehouse
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Lifehouse
Track:
Come Back Down

a poem for Shelly Lubben - God's Star:

Thank you shelly.
thank God for you.
you made me see a deeper sky made blue.
a further place.
a farther away.
no more departure.
this start.
new day.


Author's Note: I gave this poem to Shelly Lubben. She is an Ex Porn Star telling the truth about the porn industry. Thanks to Jesus Christ she was given a new life. To read or see her testimony check out shellylubben.com Thanks Shelly:)

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New Order
Album
Retro
Track:
Ceremony




him

and at the waters edge
with all that greenness we usually call park
I saw him there
I call it him
but in fact
it was just a sunny bay
and in that moment I felt lifted here
against the wind
lofty here

for one moment I'm with you
and across the world

here

we all sang
which means we did sing

his glory
his glory
his glory still fills the whole earth
he is watching us
and his glory fills the whole earth


Author's Note: hug a tree, then thank it for the smile :)

fearness my love


fear so dear
been with you so long
you've become warm bonding and old

so near yes my dear
ive grown fond
of these moments we've spent
so far apart from my innermost desire

this break if entertained
would break this spell
chasing me to a point
a joy
that was once my fire


Author's note: Romans 8:38, 39 - And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[o] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

side note - Fear is death. He came to make us live.

side side note - fearness is a term which I use to mean this. It's a fear that becomes so known someone that one even becomes comfortable with it. It's almost like one gives it a home and a nickname as one would give a lover.

due time


every day a new photo
I fast forward

time

the darkroom assembling arpeggio
every image kneling before me
this being
new mind

sorrow won't take me
this horror will not be mine

a catagory known to memory
a triumph
all divine

remember this
because

this frame be a latter victory
and all good things
are in due time


Author's Note: for us

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Aaron Lee Martin
Album
Self Titled
Track
Divine Inspiration

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spiration

the day bows down
the promise keeps to morrow's way
the later a distant memory
I believe this lofty
to be known as today

Author's note: for Marissa

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Soul Survivor 2002
Album
Glimpses of Glory
Track
Beautiful One

used to

I used to
used to want to
I used to want to see angels appear
to hear harps
my inner desire was to see a pillar of fire
to walk a golden gate
to pause for an epiphany
on the millionth mile

trickled with cloudy bait
all luring me
all for my eye to believe you there

no longer
no fireworks or bangs to sound you here
all I want
is to know you
to know your love will stand with I
right by
right here


Authors Note: Have a blessed easter. Bless the lord today.
Psalm 104:1 Bless the LORD, O my soul! O LORD my God, You are very great; You are clothed with splendor and majesty

a fool's hope


hope
that smallest ray
seen after the darkest note
the smallest ray
after that dagger
with my blood it did coat
from above the sky
down from which it did float
that narrow gate
a sign above
the weight of it
full of hope
the smallest ray
suddenly much more
now I can say
I know the stem
from which grows hope

Author's Note: for Marissa my sicilian slice <3

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Matisyahu
Album
No place to be
Track
Message in a bottle

embrocation


could it be
what I needed was some simple

embrocation

this hurt settled in me for so long

suffocation

worked it's way through me

infestation

but with sweet serendipity you helped me

liberation


Author's Note: :)

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Howard Shore
Album
Lord of t he Rings: The Two Towers
Track
Evenstar

bucolic


I watched the birds fly in the sun
and the light hit the trees

in the morning

I watched the birds in the sun
and the light hit the trees

simply put

this morning went up
and my mind raced towards you
thank you for simply loving me
my life an equality
a bucolic man I be
decidedly following you


Authors Note
bucolic \byoo-KOL-ik\, adjective:
1. Relating to or typical of the countryside or its people; rustic.
2. Of or pertaining to the life and occupation of a shepherd; pastoral.

noun:
1. A pastoral poem, depicting rural affairs, and the life, manners, and occupation of shepherds.
2. A country person.

yesterday?

if one thinks about it
a realization comes that
you truly cannot live in yesterday
all your past sins are twenty four away

wallowing with solitude
no time machine to bring back the foray
freedom it seems
had its period in which it would stay
but unless you see
what stands in your way
looking down at what once was
above
what is
simply put
today

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Album
A Rush Of Blood to the Head
Track
Clocks

you were beautiful


the problem with sin
err
wrongheadedness and the like
is we get exactly what we want
to that I say this
to that I say goodbye
so long my love
my latter my beautiful mistake
my gorgeous desire with eyes of fire

I'll simply walk away this time
not turning back the clock of time
I'm just walking on the opposing lane
releasing all the misology that weighed me down
releasing all the lovely that weighed me down
no longer a being
weighed down

today I say goodbye to you
goodbye to you my hunchbacked liar
farewell to thee my beautiful desire

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Nirvana
Album
Nevermind
Track
Something In The Way


nis

because of this
there will always be
something I won't see
a bit that I can't touch
a serene I'll try but will not smell

a path I'll walk
but wont feel
a sense I'll know
but cannot perceive
the might by which I try
but can't kill

we see through the world partially
vacantly
and with poor clarity
but knowing you reminds us all
of a flighty memory


Author's Note: Nirvana said it best - there is "something in the way"

adora

what a swift and sure
donation to madness this be
to guard one's inner being
kept pure
in adoration of thee

little flame

little flame little flame
discussed into a darkened room
destined to be a roaring lion
but taunted by the cold
and emptied by deceit

little flame destined for greatness
yet tasting agony
and dealing now with a heart grown weak


little flame in a darkened room called enemy
four walls sounding the trumpets
claiming victory
claiming defeat

little flame in a last effort
catches a blazing fire
burning everything headstrong
ending the opaque nightfall
and winning with heat

overcoming what once looked ugly
that thing which made all bleak

little flame did hope for
little flame ran with heat
little flame believed in a fire greater
a warmth along which and partnered with
now strong enough to oppose those who gave him beat

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the Benjamin Gate
Album
Untitled
Track
Hands


a poem for the saints


on my bed I lied
then a thought came to me
one I'd like to give a saint and sinner
both of whom which are beloved to me

it was in that moment I felt sadness
this sharp knife sedated me
took me to a place of consequence
sadness it seemed overtook me


then I had a still moment
yes like I said a thought came to me

beloved I was thinkin'
that perhaps it wasn't as we all see
decidedly undecided
the revelation did then shook me

the fact is the reality isn't depression
or a faulty fight which leads to the unstirdy nature of we
maybe it is sin's progression
taking hold of all we want to see

maybe it wasn't at all my sadness
but the chains of the first fallen tree
making me thirst for an earth not yet complicated
any eye seen
nor ear hear
not anything since that came in to be

maybe we are feeling the earth itself in conflict
till shiloh right will be wrong
till shiloh
the right transformed free

Author's Note: Isaiah 64:6 (Contemporary English Version)
Contemporary English Version (CEV)

6We are unfit to worship you;

each of our good deeds

is merely a filthy rag.

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Album
One Guitar
Track
Butterflies



the atheist artist


and so
the atheist artist said to me
have your eyes seen what I almost did see
the beauty of the earth nearly touching me
the heart of the matter painted so free
my abstract oils breathing filtered air in me
what a sunset it was
arms folded looking at the sea

I painted it
so don't laugh
I'll finish it just as something makes my vision free

did you see it
a painted child nearly being loved unconditionally
the beauty of the moon partially unfettered and free
an unrestrained love depicted instantly
a waterfall giving more than an ocean's view for many to see
the world could quite possibly take on a greater picture to me

but alas
the greater has no true meaning to me
I'm an atheist painter
no sharp edged corner shall shape the soul
or take whats conceived free

the world completely my own definition
everything that is
my existence
completely created by me

virga

dedicated and nearly free

virga

so close then it overwhelmed me

virga

endebted who will set me free

virga

this body this mind imprisons me

imprisoned virga virga

when all in this world has found me out
with sin and death all about
what righteous thing will liberate thee

the cross
the cross
where libertad will run with we



Author's note: virga is rain or snow that evaporates before it hits the ground

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David Crowder Band
Album
Passion: Sacred Revolution
Track
Stars



night

once again night decided
to take the breath of an other's day
the very air within
to trick and have the victim
choke his purity
put on the throttle
leaving no play

young man the night said
today I take your light
all hope and bright lights fizzy
this hour is your night
no hope or chance of escape into day
this hour is void of redemption
the event where care itself turns a cheek away

the young man ready to give in dared not
look for day
fear all around him
doubt he clung to
darkness grabbed him
he knew dismay

when all of a sudden light arrived him
giving a beam from far away
traveling to his situation
cleaning out the hour
inserting meaning in what the man called dismay
darkness it seemed had its meaning shattered
when light
showed up
and simply called what was
new day


Author's Note: There is not just hope for you. There is hope for me. There is hope for him. There is Hope for we. It doesn't matter what you are going through. You are not alone. There is day. Night can't last. God will never leave you. He will because HE IS. Everything else that haunts you simply isn't next to him.

Deuternomy 31:6 "...he will never leave you nor forsake you."

bio

In the area of queens
the place I choose now to be
a long road started

I shoot
therefore I be

to find a photo's pulsing quandary
the bight of the action and all I see

to express a still epiphany
the lens a blurred image
these hands did make it see

to express something deep within me
for words that can never come to be
this is my camera's thesis

it's indelible mark
my legacy

for to me photography is my lion captor
forever giving until it takes the breath of me
for in it I give my every waking living
for in it you'll find me

to express a greater thing within our pondering
and meaning in a lifeless thing
for this indeed is the mark of artistry
a distilled image for a single moment reflecting everything
that thing in that moment
is mastery


author's note: poem about me and photography

Lord,Savior


it starts with this buzzing
life changing
a moments conversion leaves one senseless
then all at once the contradictions
become obstacles
freedom an introduced term
leaves your life in the fiction pile
all this for a buzzing motion
like brakes gone bad
a constant forward motion
like something gone right
a breaking locomotion

and in what should be a frightening panic
you find salvation

Authors Note: John 3:16,17

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Passion: Sacred Revolution
Track
Stars



meaning of likeness

the man determined
on a voyage he began
to search the world
and discern if art had meaning
and whats more the earth encasing the love he hate

first he did spot a painter
lowly short and stout
the painter doth say
my greatest masterpiece to date
for the person Ive painted
hath no chest nor ears nor face
only eyes to see but not one countenance did I create

failure to perceive
is this nave's fate

curious
the man twisted his head
tried
but his mind he could not taint
a man with no chest
no ears nor face
this is a wicked tragedy
no man should celebrate this fate

so on the man went
scurrying till the day was late
near
far
but more he saw
all given to a similar distaste
a world given to pity
no eyes chest or face
disfigured
frustrated
like a man with no image
all great things erased


Author's Note: you'll have to subscibe to the list. It's to long to post sorry...

justice made right

as he layed still that night
in the woods at the stars he stared
he prayed breathing in wind
eyes glued to the twilight
give me a fortified hammer he prayed
for my stature isn't large enough
to break down those gigantic walls past the bight

Gargantuan are its proportions
and many are the horrors which keep me awake this night
give me a forty foot hammer Lord
that I might strike down that which went against my family's right

give me two hundred horses and chariots made of silver
a fearsome battle ax and gold plated pike
because my stature is too small
to pierce the heart of those who left me
the blow I deliver would give a laugh of smite

the Lord answered
be still my child
don't let your heart query ponder
for I'll be that mighty
the one who wanders
searching the hearts of your enemies
quieting their vengeful action
lacking somber
inciting fright

I'll ride your two hundred horses
carrying three battle axes in which to silence the ones who left you as mini
given you alone
no direction left that's right

but realize
your stature is plenty
just take into thought
left with me your taken life is large and heavy
winning warfare
is giving to me
making your entry see heights

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Album
Passion: Sacred Revolution
Track
O' Praise Him


freedom is I Am

for now I know what freedom is
so on my saviors lap I lay
forgetting the bolts
that let me down
his whispers make me stay

there is safety here
on his mountaintop
beauty seen
the array
in this place has mastered me
making old hurts
go away

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Album
Passion: Sacred Revolution
Track
Holy is the Lord





Residence

then the Lord said to me
abide in me
let me reside in you
be my tabernacle
let me rest in thee
and lay upon my holy mountain
abide in me
abide in me
let my Joy be your holy mountain


Author's Note: Happy valentine's day God. Thank you.

Gloria


some think
before and some not knowing what you are
to them a solid poem
or a lovers kiss right when the sun
bids farewell
then sinks into dawn

a breath of fresh air
atop the tallest mountain top
a sense of autonomy
with more riches then one can stock
all folly and pale next to you
for Ive seen your beauty

not a reflection or pale shadows
you
just you
for a man cannot compare
buy or parade your lovely
barter for a piece of your wisdom
or even pretend to have seen your lot

no wealth compared to your many mansions
and no war with spoils can be fought
your treasure is your beauty and your beauty alone
no weather on record could rot

no eye has seen
ear heard
finger touched
heart felt
lips spoke
mind percieved
sypmphony written
life fathomed
intelect pondered
love touched
what you've stored
for those who've ultimately you adored
a meal for the beloved
a feast with no stop

audience

I talk to an audience
that doesn't listen

faithful poetry reader

this is poem for we to hear
our atmosphere
some lines for the readers ear
you see this is our world
story is sent to the reciever
together we live in commune
disregarding a critics faithful eye
putting a knife to all he deems unneccesary

you see this is our world of dancing fairies
underground slam sessions
our sancuaries
you see down here
we dictate the corporate milk lactate
and all our love does a body good
no one loses in our fair ground

because expression is the currency of the underground
by mere form we indoctrinate a new level of pretty
sounds
stringing together some unity
you see success is not determined by the winner
and slave doesnt mean the owner faster

bigger doesnt determine a master
and poetry by itself
is where faithful hearts find pasture

Run Run

so he opened my ears
a sound fermented
plenty
out grew a noise
new to mine drums
heavy

shall I proclaim
this news
to the world
to all
to many

no
he said
readied

but should I run my lord
without rest
to every land?
stop i shall not
even if I grow wilting
weak
weary

no he said
a face firm
integrity

with a calm I've come to know
he said this race is won
run
steady

for the victors will hear me
my words whispered
left alone
they are plenty

Christian Punks

remember
when you used to cast aside the hypocrisy.
remembering everything you hated about Christianity.
deciding to not be like that
remember why you became a christian punk
remember the zeal
the unmitigated passion for God
reading the word and believing
having hunger pains
wanting more and more of God everyday
the words no compromise on your lips
circle pits of worship
giving all for the cross
remember what it was
how it felt
what it still is
the family
friends
cornerstone festival
a glimpse of heaven to be
remember what it was
who ya was
what you wanted to be
notu
dbc
have you forgotten
the fire that made you gold
that consuming fire that made you whole
nothing mattered except being with him
again I say
pick up your cross

the pressure is on you
to stand for what you believe
remain again
remain in your first love

mermate

she'll be cool
she'll be great
love n chips
fish no more
less one more piece of bait
lovely mermaid
swiming mate
in this wave I caught
the perfect mermate

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Album
Self Titled
Track
The Long Journey Home







Indeed I am

it was so clear to me
that day
now its but a memory
remembered but not lost

I held
it
in my hand
then once was
former
no longer am
it would seem that I'm remembering a memory
something certain
appearing
then slipping away

so do I travel my wilderness
forgotten
walking alongside pity
or do I let myself know
what I know
I know
I am

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Aaron Lee Martin
Album
Self Titled
Track
The Long Journey Home








a thing a person would love


you're pretty
and I like some things about you
the thoughts I have about you
the conversations including you
the times I talk
knowing I have a listening

and when you sat
sun laying in your hair
my heart glistening
the funny way the light hit your eyes
a lovely thing to see
unknown before to me

and our talks be a might giddy
straight things
entertaining a foolish romance
my heart winning
a beauty
your name
a welcome thing
a word and never spoken thing
newness
in a single thing

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Aaron Lee Martin
Album
Self Titled
Track
The Long Journey Home







heavenless

so it was in the distance
like a pied pipers lullaby
he heard the melody
a soft smelling serpentine
sweet
low
but invading every part of him
with every step it grew
marching alongside it commanded him
a feeling he'd dreamt to know
all at once perplexing yet completing him

his feet began leaving the ground
inch by inch he no longer knew his home
forsaken to him
above him
less sky
below him
everything once certain to him
no longer with him
closer to the serene
the swan song grew
metaphors and cool rain in summer
loving sunrise coupled with new romance
searching
but nothing could compare to this
searching
a feeling so indescribably matchless
yet he could barely feel it
all but two words
heaven he said
glorious

to my pit he went for me

this day
it occurred to me
to the depths my friend went
this he did for me
down a winding treacherous staircase
with speed to certain doom
darkness bent his body
taking on the shadows
a darkness never known to any so dim

but to him the cost was counted
to die he said was gain
so he went for me
falling for my shame
to the depths he went
just to save me from a fall

oh that rugged cross
at whence he bore all my shame
that rugged cross that rugged cross
a fall made for a king

Bold New World

we ride our bikes
we live a healthy life
sunglasses gone now
we dont wear them at night
around the world
its a rigid political frame
choking the air
making all aware of the warming global exchange

In a nothern america or the middle of Iran
regardless if you're a youth in China
or a messenger in Japan
its a bold new world
many made into a state
smashing up the levy
foreign cry insulted
poor men turned bait

its a world unsided
in a direction gone downhill
leaving us wondering
if we've been given the short change
the quandry of sane men made ill



Author's note: for Kym

War Morn

young and ambitious
I was full of courage
I wished to go and fight the war
but where shall I go?
what's more how shall I fight?
so thus began my query

with a limp a hop and a voice too meek
I started my question marked journey
to the head office I went
and started my search
to question the generals of war

to fight he said
all you will need
is a mind to conquer hell's vengeful fury
now off with you boy
ask the men on the field
for their scars will tell
stories a plenty

so off I went to the sergeants of war
to further stretch my query
now one sergeant was helpful
with a face full of dirt
ears gone from all the shells and gunfire
all you'll need is a loud
triumphant yell
with which to celebrate the victory
now off you go to the front lines of war
there the privates will give your ears plenty
but pay attention quick
or you'll be sure to miss
the crux of this violent fury

hurried I rushed
into the eye of the wave
war never looked so bloody
it was there I met a private worn and spent
courage beaten bent but not bloodied

the private looked in my eye
and with one simple phrase
emboldened everything about me
he said to triumph over this war
you'll need know one simple thing
the victor
will have to die
for many



Author's Note: why am I a Christian? It is a powerful thing to know what true love is. So much so when you find that perfect love nothing in this world can ever compare to it. You in fact find yourself getting up everyday prepared to die for it. His sacrifice becomes yours. Not simply because you read a story and realize oh this is what I'm expected to do. But moreso because you see Christ's sacrifice and realize he died for the war going on inside you. Then all at once you see that it simply must end because you are waging a war with the very lover of your soul. One must ask why they would wish to destroy themselves by rejecting perfect love.

John 14:27

Currently Playing
Eric Serra
Album
The Fifth Element Soundtrack
Track
Leeloominai




one thing you missed


one thing you missed
is that I love you

what I told
but you didn't hear
is that when you wake up I adore you
when you go to bed for those 8 hours
I miss you
when you don't want to be bothered
I'm thinking about the times
we were in communion
and in those times I shut mine eyes
and wait for you
slowly crying I die for you

on cold nights
I want to be warmth to you
when you rejoice
I'm victorious with you
my friend what I'm saying is
I've dedicated my life
to you

remember

seasons change
but admiration remains
eternity fits
a lasting friend


Author's Note: God Speaks. Listen.

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Flee The Seen
Album
Doubt Becomes The New Addiction
Track
right before you dissapear

Record Label
Facedown Records



my own heart led me astray

it was mine own heart that set me astray
led me that way
far from that day
in california where the trees did shine
and on your feet I did lay
I can see it clearly now
it was so blue
the air so clear
then being a different day
then being opposed to today

but I'm waking up now
I hear you now
no longer reclused
trapped in a dungeon of my own making
I know now
it was my own heart that led me astray

fellow

when you look up
direct at the moon like you're the first
you're alive
when you fall in love like the last two lovers on earth
the only two who ever did
you're alive
to breathe in the Adirondacks and cascade down that mountain
with wow
you're alive
to awe
to sacrifice
to stand in brotherhood with men
you've been made
alive