Currently Playing
David Crowder Band
Album
Can you Hear Us?

Track:
you're everything

apology accepted

I've wronged you
Ive wronged wronged wronged you
I feel departed so why not leave you?

he answered

because there is no place you go that I can't find you
there is no distance to great that I would not set out and seek you
there is no mountain so high that I wouldn't set out
on exploration to meet you
no pit to dirty to go in head first and retrieve you
no stain to ugly to clean in order to serve you
no army to great to fight for you
no conflict to unbearable to advocate for you

what's more if you left I would miss you
if it suddenly turned winter i'd miss the warmth of you
holding hugging and sitting beside you
amongst the coal and fire
nothing burns brighter than the thought of you
and all this is to say
Im madly full of love with you
desperately with joy I love you

Authors note: amen.

Currently Playing
John Coltrane
Album
the gentle side of coltrane

Track:
In a Sentimental Mood

Lilac Turned Ugly

lilac turning to a dull blade
the flower is dying now
I was certain I planted it in fuzzy soil
brown gritty and ready
no pot just trusting in nature's way
but I stomped it with a boxcar named betty
destroying some
thing
that could never hurt me yesterday tomorrow or today

mistrust is left without the friendship of content
who knew
it even snows whilst killing flowers
in the ides of may


Authors Note: ever hurt someone you love more than once?

Currently Playing
Lifehouse
Album
No Name Face

Track:
Simon

Conjunction

I look upon your eyes
a clasped finger encircles mine
this certainty I wont forsake
a window of time for eternity's sake

it is in words my soul put it's stake
defining themselves
one life combined
with a simple merry
then suddenly my entirety has been given meaning
no sound too ill
no conjunction too heavy

Currently Playing
Spoken
Album
Echoes of the Spirit Still Dwell
Track:
Promise




my hope for yipsilanti

in solitude my soul is no longer found
misery a lost art
now this resounds
a flutter of vision
four plus one score and two
a glimmer bright bestowed to a skivvy
a cross in roads loving misery
I was lost
but
now im found
love lifted me
love lifted me
love
served
me


Author's note: perfect love answers the biggest questions...

Mirth N' Worship

in a moment I knew you and you knew me
sadness was something refracted from me
the sun stars death and birth
all seem less chaotic
within a new mirth
and all this wondering
now hoping to no more stray
giving me gaiety
everytime I rise a new day

and I read
and I study
we love
my chest ruddied

and I laugh for God
and I smile for God
and I have joy with God
and I laugh through God


Author's note: a poem about heaven, the joy of the lord, and worship. Worshiping God is a hint of heaven and sines God's joy on us.

Pirate Jim No Mass

this is a tale that made a pirate soggy
so about your tears fore' the crew eats you like bait
a tale o' hurt
the cause a bonnie lass flirt
filthy but tender are at the heart
of this this tales innermost content

ol' cap'n jim he was once a ships monkey
no crimp or doubloon could lead this man astray
fore jim would one day be a pirate
with gold tooth he'd never deny it
a black sail of his own would he posses one day

so jim did grow
burly beard full of spat
with a cutthroat crew they sailed the seas and let fly thier frigate
leaving no free to remember
thier jolly roger
never again to see light they'd say "ballast be o'er day"

then one day a cable jettisened ol cap'n jim
a fluke set his piratical acts
her name was o'clare and wih a wisp captured that seadogs lip n' fancy
they met but she alone conquered
hip with switch she doctored
leading like a simple galley

and it was alone he now ventured
fore she made haste with a two fold booty
cap'n jim mutineered
taken by a wenches eyes
no ship
cup o' coins
or bonnie lass to lessen a broken hearts levy

if love were clap in irons this would be jim's fate
for after she was done it was love's prison he'd marry

one day she was less than a whisper
cap'n jim's heart a reef in a lone vesper
drifting
with no ship
jack o' staves
nor man of war for a buccaneer to prey

Author's note: YARRR!!
(in honor of today which is talk like a pirate day www.talklikeapirate.com)

king's loving ransom

what is this bestowed to me
nails and bones and victory
a stain and frown removed from thee
the wieght of night is what unsettled me
a plight appeared and removed my frown
no greater love than this was found
a hope within is what I see
for one gave all to be with me
no greater love can a being caress
through pain and darkness my knight fought my death
retreating my giant and serving my time
recluse was the bitter clocks chime
what is this when he founded me
a rugged cross with love's tears it pinned thee

Authors note: John 3:16-18

16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[f] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.[g]

Currently Playing
The Cure
Album
Greatest Hits
Track:
Close to Me




collective memory of a thoughtless romantic


these are the collective of my fantasy
inspired
comments
but poetry in motion nonetheless
that is if you want them to be
because today it was a thought to me
today it was a whirly thought to me
that one day true love came to be
and in that twenty four we fell in love
and in those hours pigeons became doves
could this be a silly love song
am I just a dreamer who's let his thoughts gone wrong
Ill be a fool and a desperate romantic
lest my eyes open and the thought
of women practicing needless sex in the city
makes me frantic
an eratic line now outside
but formerly in our attics

ever since I was a boy
I wanted an other
to hold
gently kiss
and say I love her
with her I'd set
and in the morn she would rise
bitter cold never seperating
something to pure to demise


Authors note: some lines need to be drawn. Romance should always stay alive. :)

me without you

for you I wait my hearts desire
clammering emotions
no disease but moments often make me a liar
I'm a mirror
a hope
a romanticly involved fool
waiting for you
a shade of grey
a feeling
a flutter
a moment I've yet to touch
a cheeck I've yet to kiss
a hand I've yet to hold
a moment I've yet to miss
an eye I've yet to gaze
an ear I might never own
a doubt I always see
the thought that Ill live in service
holding out
walking past you
without me

Authors note: I wish I had a girl...

Currently Playing
Jason Mraz
Album
Live at Java Joe's
Track:
0% Interest



bright day learned

this thought arrived by courier one day
it read
this just came to me
that perhaps the reason
for rain pain
strain
division
tribulation which is troubles
tension masquerading as victory
and distance leading to disarray
is so we realize
that the sun shines
despite it all
in our hearts
living waters never failing
feeding in all frenzy
proving that dam would never give way

Currently Playing
Jason Mraz
Album
Live at Java Joe's
Track:
Conversation With Myself




Father become my day

so then he was done
the father told the son
a tale of pain in which the father
could have been undone
but he loved intensely
never to be loved in return
and from these flames
like gold
he did walk away

and with this tale
in the world the son did grow
he grew
and loved
met a girl
they loved she ran
he gave to others
then they'd take away
father no longer here
only an example remained
the son pressed on
always reflecting a life
but for the purpose of this
lets call it a day
the son strained
to reflect that day
when pain resembled perspective
and rain seemed farther away
you see the son realized
which from this some stray
the more he loved
gave and did not take away
the closer to his fathers perfect love
he would stay
and besides
with the love of his father
any son can make it through a day


Authors note: this is not only a poem about Jesus Christ but realizing what love is through him. Love is benefitting others at the expense of self. Love is more than loving those who love you. When you go beyond the safety zone you find out what love is. Loving your enemies and those who tear you in two.

Mother Theresa once said

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can
be no more hurt, only more love."


Love is more than we imagined. Its Beautifully perfect.

Currently Playing
Symphony in Peril
Album
Lost Memoirs and Faded Pictures
Track:
Can One Possess Autumn





the words of my mouth

yae though I walk through the valley
of the shadows of death
fear and distortion surroiund me
but I know beyond this world of plurality
and uncertainty
that you are with me
with my rock and a staff
gripped
your arms surrounds me
secured I slip away
focused on an aformentioned goodbye
tall blues after low greys
you're my epitome of sky


Authors note:
Remember one thing. If you serve Jesus Christ NOTHING that happens in this world can take away that hope. NOTHING. what some fail to realize is that reality is all that matters.

Jesus is Lord. no matter what you go thorugh

nudiustertian

nudiustertian
or as I like to call it now distortion
as it were or as it is
so this story can see

yesterday we were all singing along
but now it seems things have changed
today we're dragging our feet
the dearly departed
whispering division
forgetting companionship
this fortified fire becomes solidarity
cementing what should never have been
and before we know it
our asses think they know how to steer
our Godly love becomes a fragmented nudiustertian
a one piece band playing distortion
forgiveness pulling up chairs
all unable to hear think or see

Currently Playing
Madison Greene
Album
Think the Dancers Mad

Track:
Departure

the purpose of people

took off that morn
overalls and my converse
just another day that I tripped over
so down the dirt road I took off
led to a log so I sat
met a frog
who was a train hopper
he asked me for flies
looked in my pocket and alls was there were dimes
he huffed and went along his way
leaving his scooter behind
hopping forward in a scurry
so I took the scooter
and traveled on my way
faster now I sped
nearly running over an ant
stopped to apologize
glad and bursting with merry
the ant thanked me
but not before he gave me a crumb
I didn't have much use for it but I took it anyway
given to the manners my mother taught me
I decided it was the right thing to do
I hurried along with my scooter
hand full of a crumb
stumbling along the day

finally I come across a purple man
destiny he said is a two headed dragon
mysterious but never giving too much away
wait and you'll find a crumby disposition leads to full days
a dirt road has clear meaning
and a frog with wheels can determine the course of your day

all this combined with a clumsy nature
will frown you into a lavender and purple array

Currently Playing
Keith Green
Album
So You wanna go back to egypt

Track:
Oh Lord You're Beautiful

Persephone
my misfortune is that I'm used to watching
waiting with a prayer
my heart at your command
distance the known to all that's fair
like loving brethren
still I'm the one who truly cares
despite your scars on my arms
I'm decided
I care
one giving in to a fools race
my emotional lincoln
not leaving me the name of a getty
walking waiting persevering without pitty
longing for the love I created
persephone
for you I was designed to wait


Authors's Note: God persues us like a lover. Faithful and kindly. Eventhough trample on his love with dirty shoes he forgives us, loves us then makes everything brand new.

Currently Playing
Howard Shore
Album
The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (soundtrack)

Track:
The King of the Golden Hall

Arttrinsic

some think me crazy
some may call me a loon
but I feel the problem with our world
is we practice ballet
then pay money to watch cartoons


Authors Note: I think switchfoot said it the best in one of thier songs "we were meant to live for so much more. have we lost ourselves?"

remember...Art lives to be heard.

Currently Playing
Hopesfall
Album
no wings to speak of (ep)

Track:
The Far Pavillions

faith my stability

taking a break
my indecision broken
by a clumsy fall
my now eyes dilapidated
faith consummated
on this small and quiet block
I learn many lessons
can you hear me now
my stomach growls saying
this one growing
and with this trial
you get more knowing
feeding me any and trials and thing
crossing and eating is a routine thing
betting on growth
until my health is sistine

Authors note: You aren't alone. God is always there waiting for you to fight again; Ready to give you salvation.

Isaiah 64:6 (New International Version)
New International Version (NIV)

6 All of us have become like one who is unclean,
and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;
we all shrivel up like a leaf,
and like the wind our sins sweep us away.

Currently Playing
Defiance Ohio
Album
Summer 2003 Tour

Track:
Bikes and Bridges

Guttle

pardon me
not subtle I sink
I win I pry
we kiss and hold
hands worn together
for years through fears
I'm walking one day talking
across the street
a friend with a skip
hop and some jaxs
they play along a cloud
a sky with mostly sun
further down the day
a bit past the east side of a block
grandma an elder
I respect
she smiles
wisdom part her lips
so decidedly I sit
she says
days like this aren't arrogant
to sit and play
a clear sky and a sober mind
put in a glass topped with a sunny sky
these are things I remember
then with a loving kiss and embrace
she sent me on my way
to tell all what we experienced this day
hoping a cane will save the day
letting me know kind memories
are fodder in the rough

Currently Playing
Paula Cole
Album
This Fire

Track:
Where have all the cowboys gone

Lovingly Continuation

this is my discontempt
my equator of disaster
turned around
now hope
avoided a crash
I'm now honor
definite
a warriors sword
I live again
worn out but still
bending my back up
in the least I can feel again
this lives again
I'm alive to live
I'm cut for you
I serve for you
and this moment
I'm restored for you

Author's Note: don't give up on love, your dream, or tommorow. Your words have meaning.

Currently Playing
Lifehouse
Album
No Name Face

Track:
Simon

Sweet Den
sender and receiver
fear not this is the only transmission of this kind
I whisper to you
with wonderment I think
'will you understand not only hear'
letting words free
releasing vowels from lips
one last grasp from the heart
I let go
you receive my clumsy metaphors
eyes widened
and with one smile
adding to what I once conceived
as divine

Authors note: for Andrea

Currently Playing
Lifehouse
Album
No Name Face

Track:
Simon

Adamite

at times it seems love was a spectral thing
always getting the win
me always letting it in
but other times wine seemed less divine
I've left it in the bollocks
but truth remains
and there I found a lull in a cursed lulliby
captured by hope
erased but still
my legs walk along a withered capulet
a tired moon
wasted pirouette
I dance in the dark
guided then by a useless mind now worn

but at once a light
blind motion given meaning
God's journey not in vein
and this is what it meant
all along
to hope
give
burn
die
arise
only to live again
pain being gain
alive to you
new wings never the same


Authors note: a tale of romance

prayer disconnection


oh what grace this is
that came to be
that you God could love a wretched
a twisted thing such as me
mine eyes are just as wasted
at times my soul seems just as separated
but still
you perfect love me
the heavens twist and flex
bend and reach
fitting my wayward design
filling mine
oh what grace this is that came to me
that God would love a wretched thing
like me

Currently Playing
Against me!
Album
Reinventing Axl Rose
Track
Eight Hours of Sleep



Stand strong and salute

with his army suit on he lay there
outside the door he could hear
lovely whispers of gratitude
wife full of tears sitting beside him
grasping his medal in one hand and hers in the other he slipped away
more then a noted memory he swam away
on a cold day in autumn he slipped away
now he found himself seated at a clean white table
with others like him
with honorificabilitudinity in their hearts
courage and discipline in thier minds

a place kept clean by dutiful men
just like himself
everything perfect and pristine
the very chairs lined with every jewel and ruby imaginable
polished with ferver

with awe he looked at nothing but bright light
all bright light surrounding
it was at that moment
when his observations peaked
all the pain lack of compassion and honorableness
every backward way in the life of former
seemed dim
beacuase now all his suffering was worth it
all was validated
for the sight of a white cloud he now sat on
floating in the sky


Authors note- Heaven is worth it

Galatians 6:9 (New International Version)

9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

Currently Playing
Jeffrey Lewis
Album
The Last Time I did Acid I went Insane
Track:
Heavy Heart

Heavy Heart
the sky cracked
the scepter descended
the sheep collected
and suddenly he was accepted
looking around he found himself in a white room
with a chair
and a smile
with two arms and some feet
he came in the pleasant white room
with a chair
glowing white
then with eighteen teardrops in his heart
the boy cried
not knowing he or any other life form
could feel this light
and right before the eighteenth tear drop
dropped
he caught it
said "that makes seventeen"
wiping them away
and this one doesn't count
the boy then asked his only question
the only question he'd ask
one single question for all eternity

"were you in the rain"
"I mean are you in the rain"
he just smiled
turned around
walked out the door leaving it open
the boy watching with wonderment
floating away


Authors Note:
Revelation 21:4
4 He will wipe away from them every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more; neither will there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain, any more. The first things have passed away."

Play true love Hardcore on my Gibson SG
hmm.. yea this is what I want
it's still me desire
butterflies candy rings
and a wedding ring tattoo
from my future belle
my sweet baboo my longed for 'eternal fire'
soft lips swapping spit
tree swinging
and yes I'm the one to say it
harps singing
violins hitting lovely notes
our love could surely cope

because my desire is still you
the sweet serpentine I've yet to meet
I'm dancing in place
ignoring the world
because you are still my hearts desire
strumming chords
in that easy G
with double peadals
ready to accept anything
even keys in minor

Play true love Hardcore on my Gibson SG

hmm.. yea this is what I want
it's still me desire
butterflies candy rings
and a wedding ring tatto
from my future belle
my sweet baboo my longed for 'eternal fire'
soft lips swapping spit
tree swining
and yes I'm the one to say it
harps singing
violins hitting lovely notes
our love could surely cope

becuase my desire is still you
the sweet serpentine I've yet to meet
I'm dancing in place
ignoring the world
because you are still my hearts desire
strumming chords
in that easy G
with double peadals
ready to accept anything
even keys in minor

Play true love Hardcore on my Gibson SG

hmm.. yea this is what I want
it's still me desire
butterflies candy rings
and a wedding ring tatto
from my future belle
my sweet baboo my longed for 'eternal fire'
soft lips swapping spit
tree swining
and yes I'm the one to say it
harps singing
violins hitting lovely notes
our love could surely cope

becuase my desire is still you
the sweet serpentine I've yet to meet
I'm dancing in place
ignoring the world
because you are still my hearts desire
strumming chords
in that easy C
with double peadals
ready to accept anything
even keys in minor

Play true love Hardcore on my Gibson SG

hmm.. yea this is what I want
it's still me desire
butterflies candy rings
and a wedding ring tatto
from my future belle
my sweet baboo my longed for 'eternal fire'
soft lips swapping spit
tree swining
and yes I'm the one to say it
harps singing
violins hitting lovely notes
our love could surely cope

becuase my desire is still you
the sweet serpentine I've yet to meet
I'm dancing in place
ignoring the world
because you are still my hearts desire

Fear bot
then at once the world was a light
they flickered then vanished from sight
my dad became my eyes
and a dark sky my only insight
as my mind molded something
I never could quite see
fear was a thing
you could dine with quite easily

but all at once my world blew a fuse
left with nothing
confused
pondering the foundation my feet did walk?
neigh crawled
for this night is a new day
new dawn
new feel
a man looses master
looses a world
recieves new zeal


Authors note: "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom" (Prov. 1:7

Fear bot

then at once the world was a light
they flickered then vanished from sight
my dad became my eyes
and a dark sky my only insight
as my mind molded something
I never could quite see
fear was a thing
you could dine with quite easily

but all at once my world blew a fuse
left with nothing
confused
pondering the foundation my feet did walk?
neigh crawled
for this night is a new day
new dawn
new feel
a man looses master
looses a world
recieves new zeal


Authors note: "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom" (Prov. 1:7

lightly salted

you are what
I feel its not
me that wants
so reform what I'm
comprised of
make me
a dendriform loosely
shaking in your winds
so responsive
to the water and
your winds

lead me to this moment
tornado flash flood catatonic disaster
a deep space band aide
reflecting a return
filling a void
promising lasting change

Reality mic check


I'm sadly glad to say what Ive found
because the truth is on that day
it was the grey sharks that kept us in line
along the blue river
atop a boat
cruising along those raging waves
it was the grey sharks with long teeth
that kept us all in line
along that long blue river
called georgia
it was our fear that kept us all in line
I'm sorry to say but all is true
we came and saught something larger inside
but all we found was a great grey monster
a long river
and a small elongated nothing
etched deep within our own lot


Authors note: the fear of the Lord is the begining of wisdom. Its wise to let go of our own egos and realize that we need God.

Currently Playing
Luti-Kriss
Album
Throwing Myself
Track:
Bonus Track


Im alive

now all I feel is cold
my fingers composing numb
touching the strings with no nerve endings
strumming with no will to play
a sister taken from brother
all the while dancing in a grave
praying for a note
remembering a concerto
and the whole time we all feel dead inside
not being able to feel the light setting

Authors note: a poem about compassion

Jah Hym

My God my God
Hallelujah my God
My Lord and savior
Hallelujah my God

Currently Playing
Rob Lacey
Album
Word on the street
Track
Huge White Throne


Revelations


up the step
one leg then two
you thought you were alone
and I said if only you knew
one three four steps then another two
up a staircase was the challenge to you
it winded you sweat
you thought you were alone
but I said yet again if only you knew
by your side I cried
waiting
my patience grew
I'm there I said
seeing you pour out a witches brew
then the staircase winded moreso
and moreso you
no longer old but now anew
then it came
the day you saw me
we cried
atop my winded case
we shared minds
pausing
speechless
and in my arms
you finally knew



Authors note: Revelation 21:4 (New International Version - UK)
New International Version - UK (NIVUK)

4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.

Currently Playing
Jason Upton
Album
Dying Star
Track
Will of God

Alter

how does a mute repent
does he cry out to God
or howl in the wind
for the things which I've done
aren't pretty
and I have no toungue
to speak my actions
to save a city
to make the newborn remain
or the old undone


Authors note: Mark 10:27 (New International Version - UK)
New International Version - UK (NIVUK)


27 Jesus looked at them and said, With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.

Currently Playing
Hopesfall
Album
The Satellite Years
Track
Only The Clouds

no nudity allowed

everyone looks to be beautiful
in expiring eyes
but when I look directly into you
with you
inside changes
sudden
at once
I'm live active aware and different
my guts a little bit fuzzy
furry on my organs of mire and clay
never imagined I could be lovely
they say there are some things soap can't wash away
so I look far and distant
for someone to kiss this masquerade
only to find a butter fly close with consanants
kissing me knowing me
touching the aformentioned innards
lonelyness cacooned then sent on holiday
joy gives my lip plenty
no more yesteryear
all I've got is today



Authors note - You are beautiful. Whoever you are. You were made in the image of God and loved into existance. dont waste your time finding validation in humans. Why because you were created to worship God. You were made to reflect Hashem. Thats the very meaning of life...

For more meaning and poetry analysis subscibe to my email list...

Currently Playing
Hopesfall
Album
The Satellite Years
Track
Only The Clouds

Mind River


this is how heaven my mind was
mostly
and right now is
like a long calm river
smoothie in my brain
clear
concised
certain and prepared
we're going along sleepful
and rested
currents now civilized
winds pass by
and in this adopted hour
I call you abba father
with this friendship
I say you're my true love
oh how this boat rocks like a happy vessel
stars at night blinding us
morning sun never this clear
new days are with you my friend
whatever comes is no care
now having my love and friend and destiny
smiling and hoping at each pier

Fear and Loathing in NYC

Fear and Loathing in NYC
Originally uploaded by Irena Kittenclaw.

My friend Irene took this. Hope all you Zombie lovers enjoy it ;)

Currently Playing
Deftones
Album
Hexagram
Track
Minerva

Zombie Flick Poem

to you
from me
I write from beyond the grave
my fingernail
polish is rotten
my eyeball makeup still fresh
pluma ready and stirred
so I wirte from beyond the grave
never feeling and always numb
decidedly boney
respectably unfresh
to be undead to be undead
is to be not pretty


Authors Note: alive in Christ

Currently Playing
Hopesfall
Album
The Satellite Years
Track
Escape pods for Intangibles

Touched

what a day
what a life
today I sat on a pier
a world of no on my lap
I look up
see a man a father
daughter too
he flying a kite
he tried
she ran
cheering her hero
him grasping wind
grasing her
I smile because she is embraced
then I sat
and cried
touched
finding answers
on a pier
with a girl
and him

verse seventeen



pant pant run and run
weary now from the road you've come
take a rest
you're torn and broke
like a rich man made a skivvy
but behold he makes all things awake
a new creature
the old beast now pacification
the stronger man releasing the pain
so now you go
singing
faster
lighter
an incandescent pretty

Currently Playing
David Crowder Band
Album
The Lime CD
Track
I need You

Quickstone


"I don't understand" she uttered
for her it was a matter of perfect sense
"for me it's the wind and the sounds of my heart" he said
"a nulling tone taking presidence over what my eye hears. a
path with a stone and a falling wind. a bountiful harvest and
a world of gain."
"without me." she said
then he siged again
forgetting yesteryear and the knowlege he's gained
his world did spin in this moment he was in
a mere look at her soft skin
melting his voice's tone
"what of it" he fought
"its everything" she sought
"for me my life is the clouds." he mentioned
"words cannot define my appeal." her heart screamed
"for me to die is to gain." he cited
"then I'll die alone." she weaned
"so spare me this obloquy." she said
he paused noting this moment of exchange making him age
slightly unaware
now glancing at her hair
something he knew
he knew
he walked away
and she died that day
and they weared never to know
giving what they did
understanding life
sort of
slight
possibly clearly

Now watching:
Serenity
Directed by
Joss Whedon
Year
2005







me as poem

This is the one thing i need to understand

the toil the pain the seperation and rebirth

one day i fail and one day i toil

this day is gain because im here

and all througout it you were with me

i suppose no day matters with the exception of this one

and what i do with it

i am in you and you are in me

this is the one truth that matters

the only thing that matters

my my my mind was the one thing that kept the

thorn in me

pressing the brain with agony

life is completely unfairly sweet

no more attempts to life with an edge thats straight

i refused you and you'll never take my smile

i look in the mirror and laugh and smile and dance

and two step and cry and fall into a pit

my mind neo gets me up again

you restore my cup

and i know how to love me

because i love you

because i love him

because i'll die for them

youre my thesis

the definitive work that cannot be surpassed

a textbook definition of a hero?

no you are the word itself

truth, love, hope

the very definition

so when i experience one word you regenerate it into another

useless

into new

hopeless

into posicore

you are the cycle that hasnt become my life

you are life

and i kneel here

huging your sandals

selah


Authors note: this is a poem used to descibe me. my meager attempt to describe what took place over the course of 26 years. thanks for reading!


"those that hear not the music think the dancers mad"

- Madison Greene

Currently Playing
Matisyahu
Album
Youth
Track
What I'm fighting for

Hashem Real

Hashem is real
because of you my freind
Hashem is real because you're here my friend
as plainly as a picture you drew
sitting flat on my wall
sure as rain
along with a smile we have in it
Hashem is real because you're here my friend
God is is real because you're my friend
Hashem is real because you're a friend
Hashem is real
Selah and amen

Currently Playing
Nina Simone
Album
Verve Remixed
Track: See Line Woman

my life.. so far..

I wonder
and I've wondered
I've lost and I've gained
I laugh
but I've longed
I've judged and have been judged
I swung
and came back

my family
my friends
some abandoned
but those that mattered remained
I've served
and I've failed
I've won
only to realize I cant lose
defeating myself and things
losing things
only to learn how to win
this is my life so far
a whirlwind of new days
I held to my ideals
only to realize a smallness in the things I know
how little my big things really matter
and in the end
the only thing that mattered
was how much I loved
you you you

Vegan angel

of all the things I think of
I thought you'd never hear
to see the sweet seredipity
one's wish apparently
not so distant from your lofty ear

The medic and the malpracticed mathmatics

so whats up
not I not me
Im wallowing becuase im unsure
unaware if Ill ever find it
her the thing or when
you her where is she
you know the thing fools dream of
the things people always have want of
amore romance love doctor number nine
everythings always wrong
or at least one gear is misaligned
im on a single track bound for my destination
a narrow trail
and I stride long alone
waiting for God to curtail

Currently Playing
The Benjamin Gate
Album
Contact
Track: Your Kisses Blind Me

No More Lies

If my song were falsetto would you
sing it?
If I lied a great lie and stacked it
to the sky
would you tilt your neck back to see it
as I eat a chocolate pie
and peanut cocoa spread
Im hinting at my wonder
my imaginative thought
who's beautiful, noble, or good?
in mine eyes I've no side to stand
no weapon to tarry
just a peace taken from a mind
now I sit in wonderment, shock, and amazement
for I've gotten a glimpse of self
a reflection that's left me mime

Currently Playing
Sufjan Stevens
Album
Greetings from Michigan: The Great Lakes State
Track: The Widows In Paradise

Meaning of the Bridge (Part 2)

but at the end of the bridge
in my mind was uncertainty
full of anxiety I was unaware of what I'd see
at the end
the end of the bridge
further down I rode my bike
up ahead was a woman
beautiful, blonde, hair reflecting the sun
obviously agreeing
but
at the end
the very end there was a group of boys
Jewish boys, every one hasidic
playful and ready
laughing and jumping
saying "hi friend"
waving with merry smiles...

so yes virginia
there is no santa claus
but there are angels who ride skateboards
gliding
piggyback style on the wind



Authors note- some of the meanings of the poem:

one is maintaining something thats been lost in this world... a result of men not realizing they themselves are the problem. we are all the problem. the rider in the poem realizes that from the first part of the dream to the second what is truly beautiful in this world. he sees a hint of it when he was a child.. when he had things like the honor of following and honoring parents, a father... a pure joy.
There is something divine about being like a child and also learning from one. In them we can find our way and learn more about ourselves. Its also how God teaches us about ourselves...

another meaning in the poem is...

Luke 11:9

9 “So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 11 If a son asks for bread[d] from any father among you, will he give him a stone?


One thing you can take from this poem is Truth. The fact of the matter is that the poem had a beginning and and end. This cannot be disputed. There is Truth in the world. There is absolute truth which is to say there is a right and a wrong. You can know. You can get answers to life's questions.

"There was never much hope... just a fool's hope" - Lord of the Rings

Currently Playing
Sufjan Stevens
Album
Greetings from Michigan: The Great Lakes State
Track: The Widows In Paradise

Meaning of the bridge (part 1)


I had a dream one day.
I was crossing the williamsburg.
a bridge.
Upon crossing I could've sworn there was a rainbow
clear. cut. dry. and beautiful as can be
I rode my bike on nonetheless
and a little ways off I saw a group of
Hascidic Jews
some laughing some stern
grouped together blocking
my path
the path of the bridge
then a voice said
ask and a segue there will be
so I asked
then I passed
the last part of my dream is essential
because it's the last thing i remember
today
just before the bridge ended
I saw an old man
walking away



Authors note: analiyze away :) yes.. I'll post part 2
The poem just represents life. life has meaning. sometimes we miss it... sometimes we dont. sometimes we hear God. sometimes we dont. Oh the old man at the end sort of represents my knowledge... its sort of like... the more I know the less I know next to God... can I ever truly be a wise old man?

Currently Playing
Vanessa Carlton
Album
Harmonium
Track Annie

The shoe I tied for happy

the morning is young
so I think I'll hopscotch along a ferry
the noon has come so I'll dance roundside vienna
I'm grabbing you now hand firmly holding your waist
so we waltz with slippers atop the waters of cairo
and I always knew that I was never here
really and honestly with your glasses
I'm seeing clear
hope and grappling
I'm not wishing
I put a full choke hold nelson on my position
and I love the sound we make
is it even possible to fancy happy
you are a feeling yet Im pinching your fancy
here, take this cigar
one rolled for me
the other for happy
singing showtunes along the serengety

Currently Playing
Sufjan Stevens
Album
Greetings from Michigan: The Great Lakes State
Track The Widows In Paradise

Tuffy in Michigan

so cold
I never knew it was so cold in Michigan
I wonder if today is real
for you my love it is
for you today is real
but this is a road you won't have to walk alone
for this is a day I'm with you
my friend
up far ahead there is some green grass
bread with some meat
a checkered picnic basket
with some dill pickles in a jar
mayonnaise and some applejuice so fresh
left a day late it'd go bad
and grandma is there smiling
laughing at you shivering in that blanket your mom made
singing songs with Tyler
wondering how good the days are
that have gone by
but today
Ill see for you
today I'll cry for you
right now I'm here for you
look to the sky
I'm right there with you

Authors note: dedicated to The Tuffington family. Especially to my friend TIffy

Currently Playing

Sufjan Stevens
Album
Greetings from Michigan: The Great Lakes State
Track The Widows In Paradise

Luck AP


If life were perfect I would find you
If everything as it were
we would be
And life wouldn't be a mystery
but still as it is I wait for you
pausing because there is nowhere else to go
moving forward but still finding myself looking back
in a world of peace I'd kiss your lips
in a world without dissension id know who you were
a woman without the pain
now if I were a cricket you'd be my crickette
we'd hop along the mud
traveling a mason dixie line
our lifespan spent together
traversing the Mississippi
one of a kind
insisting there is more to life than
instant transactions, bulletin boards and TV screens
longing to know a meaningful glance
wandering until we find a land with milk and honey
knowing earth will give up its dead
before utopia spews any grass
no
in this lifetime my shallow heaven is looking in your eyes
and knowing the one who made you

so after this thought I move on
following this romantic rainy morning weary
I'm gone
with one thing sustaining me
knowing that God is in the rain
yup, God is in the rain


Authors note: there are a few things in this poem... one of course is a beautiful red haired gal... Life isnt always fair but don't stop being a real and honest person because of heartche. You'll only spread the pain.. and besides.. life is bigger than our hurts... dont miss it.

Currently Playing
Taking Names
Album
This Guided Youth
Track Guide

Hour

I look to the sky
it's dimly lit
he tells me
prepare my heart and ready for war
this is the dark hour
and most wont make it out alive

Currently Playing
Matisyahu
Album
Youth

Track:
Time of your song

Life is ok its just a morning weary

today i got up
just in time
I tripped and fell down just in time
I got up walked and walked on
down a road past a meadow
saw a man two feet tall
he stopped I stopped we talked
our conversation made life commence
so I went on to face the day
I smiled and swung and then I saw a flower
upon that flower was a bee traveling to a land
unknown to me
so I became that bee and became that pollen
exploring that world regreting my past
but then I realized that everything I've known
was just in time
I got up and came to that stop
made that mistake
talked to that man and walked down that road
and everything ive known was valid
and everything ive known was beautiful
this new bold world was truth
so if life happened and led me to this
I guess I'm
just in time
just in time
just in time just in time

Currently Playing
Lifehouse
Album
No Name Face

Track:
Everything

Sand Thoughts

I crawl
because it's the only way I'd go slow enough
the only way the motion would lull enough
to comprehend
sitting with you is a movement likened to waiting
on a dixieland ferry
deep in the south
I slow my mind
waiting in the grass
letting the blue skies filled with clouds
come and wait with me
I listen
you perpetuate
and eventually I'm hearing things
sounds the pitch of heaven
all done so I'm relaxed
with you
holding me




Authors note -

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you.
Psalm 139:17,18

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Blaster the Rocketman
Album
The Anatomy of a Monster

Track:
God Free Youth Flying Around In A X-wing Fighter

Then One


one two three four
this day like a step ladder
I count again
the next day
one two three four
the day becomes a step ladder
this my wish got closer
harder but louder
a struggle but worth it
and I want so I wait
my salvation at hand
so I learn to count
one two three four
one
then two
then three
then four

Authors Note: Repent. (turn around) The Kingdom of God is at hand. (Mark 1:15)

Currently Playing
As I Lay Dying
Album
Frail Worlds Collapse

Track:
Behind Me Lies Another Fallen Soldier

As I lay dying


I'm tired, tired of not being human
tired of what I am
tired of confessions
of breaking my own heart
I'm tired of feeling alone
running in the dark
I'm alone it seems
while saints sit in
pews

pointing

I'm tired.

I wait here for you
and you alone.

I tire of not living for you
I tire of decieving my way out
I tire when I can't hear you
and all I can see are my screams climbing the wall
seemingly alone
desperately wanting freedom
from the prison of my own design
but to gain escape there came a revelation

In this world XXX doesnt mean anything
but with you alone I can stand true


Authors note: John 8:7 "...let he who is without sin, cast the first stone."

Currently Playing
Lifehouse
Album
No Name Face

Track:
Everything

nevermind the long love story (a poem of hope)

and then her heart felt its demise
she put her hands out
then up in surrender
giving in to mine eyes
you are the one I wanted
for years I missed it
so caught up in my fear
mi amor
such a fool I was
blind
unaware but now free
then then the lovers flew
together
a love that was never meant
now will be


authors note - tried some new things with this poem.... hope your heart likes it

Currently Playing
No Doubt
Album
The Beacon Street Collection

Track:
Blue in the Face

girls suck

hey nice guys this is for you

If you have a million girls in your life who just want to be your friend

this is for you

If you constanly get told by females how awesome you are but somehow remain single

this is for you

If you are told how attractive you are and consistently told you'll find someone from your female friends

this is for you

If you are tired of just being friends with females but deep inside realize its amazing to have that friendship and you want to kick yourself for not being able to be a jerk

this is for you

If you're a hopeless romantic

this is for you

If you are losing hope in the female gender

this is for you

If you realize that alot of females don't know what they want when they say they want a "nice guy" or "good man"

this is for you

If you look at the stars and hope one day to share the entire sky with one woman and die next to her

this is for you

If no one in this world aside from God above understands your heart and you feel you wont ever find that mate

this is for you
this is for you
this is for you
this is for you



Authors note: life goes on

Currently Playing
Madison Greene
Album
Think the Dancers Mad

Track:
Collide

Collide

first let me start off by saying this isnt
about Christian women...
sort of but not really
you see there is something wrong
when a woman wants the weary
the bad
the raper and delerious
to be her mate
there is something odd
when a women made in the image
of Christ the nice guy
love your enemy guy
I'm your head servent guy
rejects the family guy
the I'll be with you forever guy
the I'll romance you alone guy
the I wont abuse you guy
the
nice
guy
to me that says no future
to me that reads an uncertain world
to me I regard that with liverspots
on the skin of society
a cancer in the battered minds of women
when a Christian woman
made in the image of God
spends her waking life
ignoring the head
and skinning the blind


Authors note: Don't spend you life licking your wombs life is too short and you might miss the little nice guy. And Christian women, stop taking these Christian guys for granted. Stop acting like the world and seek God before you choose your mate. You can mess it up just like anyone assuming you know God's will.

Currently Playing
Madison Greene
Album
Think the Dancers Mad

Track:
the Eastern

Healing

little
by little
I stop bleeding


"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" - Jeremiah 29:11

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Ebirdlove
Album

Track:
How can I say

Trainhopping

there's nothing in this world left for us.

there's nothing in this world left for us.

there's nothing in this world left for us.

I'm going to board this train now
a long journey away from city lights
I'm hopping this train today.

with a companion
a pot
and a pan


Author's note: Follow your heart. Not the shallow stream of society.
Luke 12:34 (KJV): For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

Currently Playing
Hillsong
Album
More than Life United
Track
where the love lasts forever

I'm Open

with you with you
when its morning I feel you
when I run my hands through the grass
you're there
each day passes each day comes
but today
is all I have
and you are "it" today
you are a romantic waltz
a close friend
my words become plain speak
the words of a child
and I remember
provoking mine heart to utter:
"the simplest love
is usually the most likely of explanations"
the warmest feeling
is usually home
though we walk aimlessly
its possible to find a certain destination
for I looked
and found you
I hurt
so you completed me
treading though the streets destitute and alone
I could hardly walk
but you took me in for free
with your open arms
letting my lie abide with thee
oh how glad I was when you said
child come
to me
your savior
and I'll be the one
to set you free


Author's Note: this poem is about Jesus Christ

Currently Playing
Mai Yamane
Album
Cowboy Bebop Original Soundtrack Vol 3.

Track:
Blue

Aristotle Was A Pirate


nothing is "that which rocks dream of"
look at the ball bounced right off the edge
I see trees and stars and paint
vivid bold and grey
I paint a martyrs solitude
against cave walls not even there
Im alive and pissing folly
I skank into a trip
I play with knives and get cut
sitting on a hill onlooking a light
shining
pressing against my eyelids
this life is not a requiem mass
because I cried for those children in Uganda
Im a beat and my heart is bloody
I can hear
and sing
and song
I think therefore I sweat
I reach out for your confusion
hugging the dead
to consort with folly

Authors Note: the quote in the begining is from Aristotle "nothing is that which rocks dream of" this poem is of course about Athiesm. I of course am not an athiest. .. I love everybody despite thier belief system. Regardless if I agree with them or not.

Currently Playing
U2
Album
The Joshua Tree

Track:
With or Without You

Dance Dusk Dusk Dance


tonight I wish I had a partner
to dance
to dance through the park and gravel and streets
tonight we would laugh and stop
and weep
and share and lock hands
and time
wouldn't matter
because we'd be dancing together
and we'd talk and concern
and discern and advise then
bear one another getting
closer to walking to and riding to
arriving then acomplishing
coming
closer to a truth one reality
two becoming more than just a flirt
fleeting emotion loving commotion
putting a ring around something
that transcends time so wrong was I
learning you can be part of my
purpose
kissing souls with a "long eventually" find destiny