seeking a distance


praying one day
the spirit of the Lord said to me

different from most you are not
because your heart is full of idolotery
pride be your sin of choice
thinking the best
of your motives
thoughts
moving backwards in what you seek

the truth of the matter is
you could be the robber
con man
murderer
or lying priest

it could be you that performs that date rape
or passes a bar exam because you decided to cheat

put you in the wrongly right situation
desperate and despondent
you would be in the farmers store stealing pig feet

to pure in heart to be the next mussolini?
then examine the hate i saw in you
just last week

and if a lifetime you avoid these giant monsteries
having no fangs or werewolf feet

an eternity of your centrality could be a misery
for kissing at a mirror
is not the same
as minding the clouds to guide your feet

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Track:
Bride of Christ/the Adulteress

pride, let go of I

important to me
whats not
but is
won't come from me

pride is the tale
the subtle yet brief sin that grips me

contempt is me
ruling I do not know how to get along with me

accepting the smallness in state that pride developed this to be

in other words I look in the mirror and alas bigger me
loathing then loving the titanic
ship I will sink listening to the promise of rocky sea

when will I learn
to be useful and truthful
I need to learn freedom anatomy

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Keanu Reeves, Rachel Weisz



good be life


good is
the end after long
the perseverance that made you strong
the long haul some call race
scars stretched across a battered face

defending the weaker's honor
when all around them wont be strong
not giving in
being the hope when all others call you wrong

its being there when everyone wont
not taking an easy road
not giving in
having ones life determined
by something other than crooked rote

for when I stand
on my haunted life's driven edge
on a podium i'll stand
with no prepared speech
my life will have said

he put two gloves on
with stance
shorts
and the will to fight
no words or pride to speak of
he simply got in the ring
obeying the bell
he fought
flew
and gave fight.

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Everyting You Want
Track:
Everything You Want

frailty


I am not a rock
I'm chards glass and bone
a fascinating thing
one who feels
proud
self righteous
hungry
poor
wealthy
pretty
hallow
and alone

no I'm not a rock
but I am just a being formed in futility and fragility
fused with the promise of a stronger caretaker
making my weak his strong

moon seen

a cloudy moon
is still a moon
indeed

reach

we build our buildings
tall and wide
futility it seems prevails
for it seems despite all efforts
our feet
never reach the sky

stellar memory

no
it's not going to be ok
but it is
knowing this leaves me out of my mind

dont worry I aint
even though it seems as if I is

i worry dizzy and spin
then carry on like I isn't

cry and worry till I'm no longer pretty
then go to balls and dance like a prince

hoping here and knowing this here
gives me fuel for disaster

no heroics here
no cape here
no surprise here
i'm as sorry as I sound
here

only thing
a look at a star my star above
thinking saying and knowing
there is not a weakness there
that light my light

makes me think

he shines
during all those times I didn't


Author's Note: for fans of Romans Chapter 8

fear green irony

be careful
for the thing you desire will be what you get
a little green girl wanted fame
but later on she became a silloutte

the boy who could whip together yarn
grew up
used his talents and moved out west
he wanted to make the biggest sock in all mankind
he hasnt been heard of since
the aftermath it seems
left him suffocating in lint

and do you remember courtney
with the lashes oh so long and pretty
her hair she thought kept her young
until it gave way
this happening
it seems is such a pity

the doctors would say
so long
aurivoir
auf wiedersehen
adu
such a loss they thought
happenstance giving this fruitcake
to a girl such as you


you see our desires make us
tall
dark
troll like
godly
scuzy
and witty

we're all fenced in with doubt
not remembering a time
with no fence
no trolls
no scuzy
just a God
triumphant
over our take on our witty

love not my thing above your desire


I cast my cares and my loneliness aside
shattered ideas
made with the world that teaches me pride
for you my lord jesus these cares
on a ferry
away
seated next to it my lies

one knee down
giving exit the air of false words I formerly admired
you
me
and
I breathe
we
together
will breathe now
till' it becomes
our not my

you and us
your life is my life
your glory
my desire


Authors note: for cliff

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Track:
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weak

imagine these words
with silently

this world is to much
so I cry out
this world makes me cry mercy so much
this I sound out
whenever I need touch
surrender is what this soul wants much

but I do this not
because when I want you
whenever this world is to much
I cry outward

this all is much to much
so for you I reach the more much
its you I seek
too weak
to pure
but by grace I touch

the apocalypse


congratulations folks we made it
year two thousand four hundred and twenty nine

my heart the state of apocalypse
wish I might
that it was a form of nightmare
constructed by my twisted mind

the order here is chaos
a world of selfish design
here I'm king queen son and pauper

my majesty
the tongue which with I drown

Im a mocker I am a mocker
pointing a middle finger at the crown

here I lay devastated
in ashes
for the world is my unsmiling oyster

pausing at the bay

my mouth opens


now here this subjects

welcome to the kingdom
of frown

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Album
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Track:
I need to wake up

Voice

dear God let someone hear me
no need to wake and crawl then die
if you will let this voice be heard
it need not be violently sent away
thrown down suddenly
forcefully tortured
left only with the company of the afraid alongside a lie

why be given a voice but no audience
a message meant but not be heard

dear God let someone hear me
this courier given legs with stay
strong as a fat man's belly
more courage than a bearded lady asking out a guy

please give wind to my vocational melody
this my purpose
hope be engraved in this mind

dear God please hear me
message given to receivers
sent now
because I believe seeds don't die

Authors Note: does anyone care about poetry anymore?

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Track:
Only the Strong Survive

fight song


done am I
waiting for things to be to get easier
my journey is far and readied
past a silent sunday
all conformed ideas heady
not here
no place mat on which for them to lay

fighting with confidence
again comes along a darker today
guiding light shining a pathway
leading me there
to the moment
right before the sun concludes the day

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Album
Harry Chapin Tribute
Track:
Remember When The Music

the tap dancing queen with no crown

this day
this sad day
as i glance her
posture positioned by her stance
gaiety lost
joy in search of her years
a tap dancer she was
but her life in my opinion was in tears

for her to dance was to make a dollar
no joy in it said she
for she hustled to make a dollar

her only sole reason to be

for in this world
we all lack
true but thats not the point to me

because to me the true pity
is to be able to dance with no joy
no fulfillment
in the grace that I see

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Album
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Track:
Remember When The Music

do this to remember me

as I walked that day
I came across some railroad tracks
and near those tracks was a man
all alone
in the middle of a dusty town
and as he sat he sung alongside his guitar
struming
hope in his voice
and at this I did stare

with a twinkle nestling his eye
at this site I did stare
so I asked the man
why he sat
alone
and did sing

the man
sparks in his voice he said
for me a railroad is a memory
and when I sit here
my voice it feels travels for miles
a song is more than a entertainers footstool
sometimes if sung right
it makes the very world cry

for dirt roads have emotions
and empty towns still a face
the only songs made for vanity
are the ones we hesitate to make


Authors Note: Put ALL of your hope in Him.

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Child

all i'm given, yes I might

what kind of God are you?
wanting true love's first kiss
from this earthen vessel
wisdom says
with my smooch I will miss

what kind of majesty are you
to stare compassion at me
knowing my heart will misfire
missing you
disgracing our bliss

what this is
and what I can make it to be
a perfect love
almost to big
to wrap my arms around thee

for love it seems
isnt a thing pictured by me right
I thought it clandestine
searching wrongly
not seeing it on that trip


the one where I traveled
when it wasn't so bright
so finding you
brought day from night

I love you
I love you
thank you
with all I can might

Author's note: a poem against pride